Salvador Brothers Presents: RAIN

Kabanata 20

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Nagising ako dahil sa ingay ng phone ko. With my eyes closed ay pinilit kong hagilapin ang cellphone ko at nang nahawakan ko iyon ay agad kong sinagot yung tawag. "Hello?"

Narinig ko ang pamilyar na halakhak mula sa kabilang linya, and instantly I knew who it was. "Hmm. Ang aga mo namang mambulabog." Kunwari'y reklamo ko, pero ang totoo ay abot hanggang tenga na ang ngiti ko.

"Miss na kasi kita." Halos magwala ang puso ko sa saya nung narinig ko ang sinabi ni Rain. Pupungas-pungas akong umupo sa kama at sumandal sa headboard.

"Sira! Miss mo na agad? Wala pa ngang isang araw tayong di nagkikita." Sabi ko hanang kipkip ang cellphone sa tenga ko.

It's been two days since we cleared things up. Last night lang sya umalis dito sa bahay. Ayaw pa nga nya, pinilit ko lang talaga. Papano, hindi naman kasi ako makabangon sa kama pag andito sya. Naramdaman ko agad ang pamumula ng mukha ko dahil sa mga naalala ko.

"Ako ba, miss mo na?" Tanong nya. Napangisi ako at saka sumagot. "Nope!" Sabi ko.

"Tss. Mukhang di yata convincing yung mga ginawa ko sayo para iparamdam kung gaano kita na-miss. Don't worry, mamaya, pupunta  ulit ako dyan." I could imagine the smirk playing on his lips when he said that.

"Rain! Shut up!" Awat ko. I swear, my face looks like a freakin' tomato right now. I mentally slapped myself. Stupid Harley, why did you even said that?

Napatingin ako sa alarm clock ko. "Nasa office ka na?" Tanong ko. Past seven palang. "Yep."

Humalukipkip ako at dumampot ng unan para yakapin yun. "You're early. May problema ba?" Napabuntong-hininga lang sya, "Wala naman. Medyo natambakan lang ako ng work." Napatawa nalang ako. Sinabi ko na kasi sa kanyang pumasok nya, ayaw naman! Makulit talaga, ayan tuloy. "Buti nga sayo. Ang tigas kasi ng ulo mo."

"Yeah. Matigas talaga ang ulo ko." Sagot nya at napahagalpak ng tawa. Namula na naman ako. "Damn, Rain! Ang aga nyan ha? Pwede ba!" Reklamo ko. Feeling ko talaga, konti nalang sasabog na ang mukha ko.

"Oh bakit? Ikaw naman ang nagsabi na matigas ang ulo ko, diba? I just agreed." Pang-aasar nya.

"You...you perv! Ang green talaga ng utak mo, nakakainis!" Singhal ko sa kanya. Sa kainisan ko, itinapon ko na yung unan. Actually, yung phone sana ang itatapon ko kaya lang naisip ko agad na kabibili ko lang dun. Sayang naman, wala pa yung scratch.

He just chuckled at my outburst, "Ikaw naman. Di ka na mabiro. Miss lang talaga kita. Tsaka miss ko na din ang sexy time nating dalawa." His voice turned sultry on the last sentence. My inside clenched. Goodness, how can a man sound so goddamn sexy even over the phone?! Nakagat ko nalang ang labi ko. "Ewan ko sayo." Umirap nalang ako sa kawalan.

"What I'd give to be there with you right now. Yung ako yung una mong makikita pagmulat ng mga mata mo? Damn, that would be heaven." Sabi nya na bumulabog sa puso kong kanina pa mabilis ang takbo.

"That's...uh...sweet. Err." Naibulong ko nalang. Blown-out ang utak ko sa sinabi nya e.

"I really miss you, sweetheart. You'd probably think I'm just kidding. But no. I mean it. You see, two days are not enough for me to make up for the past five years that we're apart. Kung pwede lang, ayoko nang umalis sa tabi mo. I'd even be more than willing na ikadena ka sa katawan ko, just to make damn sure that you'll always stay with me. By my side." His voice was serious. I so badly wanted to cut in, pero wala namang akong maisip na sabihin. Besides, mabuti na din na sinasabi nya to over the phone. Because if not, I probably would've passed out dahil sa pagka-overwhelmed.

"Honestly, I don't know how it happened. The fact that for the past five years of being apart, my love for you grew even bigger and deeper that it consumes my heart, my soul, my whole being. It's still a mystery to me. Na kahit hindi ko alam kung nasan ka, kahit hindi ko alam kung may mahal ka nang iba, my mind and heart still shout for you. Dati, hindi ako naniniwala na kapag iniwan ka ng taong mahal mo, dala nya pati ang puso mo. But when you left? Hindi lang puso ko ang dinala mo, kundi ang buong pagkatao, Harley." I was lost for words. I don't know even know how to react.

Kahit noong okay pa kami ni Rain, he was never like this. I guess nakabuti din kahit papano yung nangyari samin dati.

I never really thought Rain could say such things. I know him. He's not the kind of person who would shower you with words. With material things, yes. Sabi nya nga, para san pa ang yaman nya kung hindi nya gagamitin? But to be this vocal? It never really crossed my mind that he's capable of saying such things.

"Hey. You still there, sweetheart?" I was suddenly pulled back to the present when he spoke. "Uh. Y-yes." I heard my own voice croacked. I suddenly became aware of the moist forming in my eyes. And before I colud even hold it back ay agad na iyong tumulo. I started sobbing. I tried to calm myself pero mas lalo lang atang dumami yung luha ko.

"H-hey, sweetheart! Are you crying? Why are you crying? Dammit! Are you okay? Pupunta na ako dyan!" Tarantang utas nya. I heard a rustling sound on the other line. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. I tried to grasp for my voice.

"No! I mean...err. I-I'm fine, Rain. I just, well uh, I don't know. I'm just really overwhelmed and all. I-ikaw kasi!" Even the words flew incoherently out of my mouth. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang puso ko. Parang hinahabol ito ng kung ano at kulang nalang ay kumawala sa katawan ko. Damn Rain and his sexy mouth!

"What? Anong ako? Are you sure you're okay?" The panic was evident in his voice. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung matatawa ako o maiinis sa kanya. He's killing me softly with his words yet he doesn't even know about it.

"I'm fine, Rain. Masyado lang akong na-overwhelm doon sa mga sinabi mo. I just...well, I never thought you're capable of saying such sweet words." I bit my lips. We just feel the same way. It's like my heart will burst out because my love for him is just too much.

"It's one of the things I regretted not doing when we were okay, being vocal I mean. I just realized it after you left. At isa yun sa mga pinangako ko sa sarili ko- that I will make sure that you'll know and feel just how much I love you." Sincere na saad nya.

It just feels surreal- having someone like him in my life. The past two days has been magical for us. I never really thought we'd come to a point na maayos ang mga issues namin sa isa't isa.

Pero as much as I want to stay and hold on to this set-up, I can't. We still can't be together because technically, I'm still engaged to Leo.

Na-guilty ako bigla. This is wrong. What I'm doing is wrong. I can't bring myself to blame Rain because I wanted this also. Kung sana tinaggihan ko sya. Kung sana naging consistent ako sa pag-reject sakanya. Sana hindi na mas gumulo pa ang sitwasyon. But what can I do? I lost it. Now I have to suffer the consequences.

Hindi ko alam kung papano ko sasabihin kay Leo ang tungkol dito. I know how much he loves me. Eversince, he never failed to make me feel how deeply he cares for me.

Minahal ko din naman sya. Hindi naman ako papayag na ma-engaged sa kanya kung hindi. Yes, I imagined my life with him as well. Hindi naman kasi sya mahirap na mahalin. He's a good guy- too good to be true, in fact.

And I know he deserves someone better than me. I may have loved him, pero mas matimbang pa din sa puso ko si Rain.

Just the thought of hurting Leo pains me. Pero kailangan. That's the least thing I can do for him- to be honest. The problem lies to how I will tell him everything.

Dammit! Just dammit.

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Hooray! Moshi Moshi! Loving loving muna. Di ako expert sa ka-kesohan kaya pasenya na kayo. Lol! So ayun, salamat sa mga patuloy na nagbabasa nito. I love you, guys!

Promote ko lang yung other story ko: TWO HEARTS COLLIDE ang title. Sana suportahan nyo din.

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