My Mistakes

Revive

Sebastian POV.

"I remember waking up to my favorite song, and I see Barry singing. I guess it's in my blood to sing with him." I tell Caitlin. They told me I was in a coma for a week, which I didn't understand. I felt like an eternity. After Caitlin got to S.T.A.R Labs I went into the bathroom and lifted my shirt up. I stare at the scars and burn marks. I trace over the bullet mark. I must have been in there for too long because Caitlin pounds on the door for me to answer her or come out.

"Caitlin, honestly, I'm fine." But she continues to examine me.

"Sebastian," I see tears in her eyes. "I'm so, so sorry for what happened." A tear fall slowly. "Barry, Cisco, Wells, and Joe have been telling me, it's not my fault, but it is, this is what happens when you get close to me, and I become Killer Frost."

I attempt to give her a hug, but she pushes me off. "Cait-"

"No, I saw you constantly moving and screaming, you were in pain and- and I couldn't wake you up from your nightmare, I couldn't- couldn't save you."

"What I saw had nothing to do with you. Nothing." 

"May I ask, what was it about then? I mean, you were screaming, but I couldn't understand, your flinched, a lot, you looking like you were in unbearable pain. You kept crying and, I felt so helpless."

"Caitlin. I'm sorry, I'm not ready to tell anyone." She looks disappointed, for a second then she nods. 

"I understand."

"Hey, Cisco!" 

"Sebastian Smythe, up and well!" He gives me a friendly hug. "Ya know, Caitlin and Barry were super upset, so in other words, NEVER DO THAT AGAIN." He smiles. 

"You got it, but, I make no promises." 

"Wait, don't start singing again."

"I think I'm done singing for a while."

"What? Rea-"

You could never know what it's like
Your blood like winter freezes just like ice
And there's a cold lonely light that shines from you
You'll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use

And did you think this fool could never win
Well look at me, I'm coming back again
I got a taste of love in a simple way
And if you need to know while I'm still standing you just fade away

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

Once I never could hope to win
You starting down the road leaving me again

The threats you made were meant to cut me down
And if our love was just a circus you'd be a clown by now

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I see Caitlin stand near the door listening.

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

"I hate you." He smiles. 

"I know." In the corner of my eye, I see Caitlin smiling. 

A/N Sorry for the wait! ;) Thanks for reading!