Just the Melody (COMPLETED)

Third Note

Streyla Freigh

Isang taon . Isang taon na ang nakakalipas magmula ng iwan nya ako, linoko, sinaktan at isang taon naring wasak ang aking puso.

How can I fix these broken pieces of my heart again? All I know is when he comes back, it will be whole, but how about if he will never come back anymore? How can I fix it? How?

“tulala na naman ang Panget”

Napabalik lang ako sa huwisyo nang nagsalita si Leila. Nagtawanan naman ang dalawa. Well it’s Princess and Cheska. That day that I met Princess, nagkita kami ni Leila and she was with Cheska and fortunately, Cheska and Princess knew each other kaya heto, magkakasama kami ngayon sa Hardin, nagkwekwentuhan. Isang lingo narin kaming nagkakasama. Masaya sila kasama pero nang napag-usapan na nila ang LOVE LIFE thingy, heto ako’t sinasariwa ang aming magagandang ala-ala, ala-alang puro pagpapakita lang dahil pusta nga diba? Alangan naman na may pagmamahal na naisabit don. Ako lang naman ang nagmahal sa’ming dalawa.

“Ano ba kasing iniisip mo?” tanong ni Cheska at ngumiti ako ng tipid. Kita ko naman ang masusing tingin ni Leila.

“She’s thinking her past.” Ewan ngunit parang madiin ang pagkakasabi ni Leila sa past. Hindi ko nalang pinansin. “the past that she wanted to go back. Am I right?” tanong ni Leila. Sa paraan nya ng pagsasalita, alam kong disappointed na naman sya. Napag-usapan na kasi namin na kailangan ko syang kalimutan. “ napag-usapan na na’tin to diba? You need to forget hi-“

“if that person became part of your life, you will never ever forget them, Lei. Even how painful it was, even it costs a lot of ache, you will never forget them. I need to move forward, I need to move on but it doesn’t mean I need to forget him, I need to forget the happy memories even though it’s just only part of his shows. I will never forget it, unless I will have amnesia”
Hindi ko na sya pinatapos at nagsalita na ako. Galit ako sa kanya ngunit alam kong meron parin eh, mahal ko pa sya na kahit masakit yong ginawa nya, mahal ko parin sya. Lintek kasi na pagmamahal yan, nakakatanga.

Love can make you dumb, indeed.

“He may hurt me; he may be the one who I feel broke but it doesn’t mean I will forget him Lei. You know it’s impossible-“

“it’s possible! It’s possible if you will do it. There’s no impossible if you will forget him Eyla” Madiin nyang sabi, napatawa naman ako.

“How? Tell me Lei, HOW? Cause if you know it, tell me!  Nahihirapan na ako!” sigaw ko at tumulo na ang luha ko. Nakita ko sa peripheral vision ko sina Princess na pabalik-balik ang tingin sa’min. “I want to move on! I want to move forward! I want to get over him! I really want it! But I know I can’t forget him, because he became part of my life! Hindi mo ba naiintindihan? Maaalala ko parin sya kasi nga-“

“Mahal mo pa. MAHAL MO PA SYA EYLA! Kahit anong tago mo, mahal mo parin sya. Yong kanta mo sa Music Room, alam ko! SYA! Sya ang kinakantahan mo! Ramdam ko eh! Ramdam ko, kasi kaibigan mo ako at ramdam ko kahit di ko nakikita ang pagpress mo sa mga key na’yon dahil yong musika! Yong nota! Pinaparamdam ang pangungulila mo sa kanya, kung bakit ganun ang ending nyo! God Eyla! You are too dumb!” inis na sigaw nya. “you are naïve, he left you. He LEFT you because he lOVES someone else, he HURT you and PLAY your feelings because it’s just a BET! Gusto mo isampal ko pa? kaibigan mo ako at ayaw kong nakikita kang ganyan! Streyla wake up!”

“Reality already slapped me Lei, you don’t need to slap me again cause if you did....I will totally break down. It’s enough.” Malumanay kong sagot. Pinunasan ko ang luha at tumayo. “How can you slap someone in reality when after that day she already wake up in her fantasy? She’s now totally awake Lei and she is trying to move forward but she didn’t want to forget those memories. It will linger forever in her heart even it gave her a lot of pain.”