normani kordei hamilton is the next big thing & she's going to stay. thank you very much.
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the road is rough while we drive on it. the radio is playing a soft ballad on 102.7 lightly. just then "pray for me" comes on. shawn starts doing that cute adorable awkward head bobbing. he turns the radio up a bit getting into it.
i remember when we saw black panther together. i practically drooled over michael b. jordan. i couldn't help it, what a man! shawn got automatically jealous which was very entertaining for me. he tensed every time michael came on the screen & did little things to indicate i was his. like putting his arm around me, squeezing my arm, kissing my neck. it honestly made me laugh. it wasn't like michael was there, he was in a screen! i watched the movie 3 times now but don't tell shawn that.
the nice memory dissolves while i think about what happened earlier today. it's crazy. i'm not in the best mood because of it. i turn the radio back down to the quiet level it was at before, i get a "hey!" from shawn.
"i like that song!" he whines.
"i'm tired." crossing my arms i move my body to the right side of the car, not looking at him.
i can tell he's confused & senses something's up but doesn't say anything. "ok, we're almost back to my place. you can take a nap when we get there." he says softly.
we turn a sharp corner. i groan in annoyance rolling my eyes. shawn sees but doesn't say anything once again. instead he decided to try & cheer me up.
"hey, we should go to that museum this weekend." he chirps smiling.
"that's stupid." i simply state still not giving him my full attention.
at this point i can tell he's getting a little frustrated with me. his face turns to straight confusion. "but you've wanted to go since i went on tour. we can go now since i'm not busy with press & shit."
he's right. i've been wanting to go to this amazing museum i found out about recently since forever. but right now, it just seems pointless.
"i don't want to anymore."
he's finally completely fed up with my simple worded answers. before i know it we are pulled over.
"what are you doing?!" i finally turn towards him yelling.
he shuts off the engine. "we aren't going anywhere till you tell me what's wrong."
i stare at his face for a second. he's so concerned & confused. he lays his hand in my knee rubbing my skin with his thumb. i don't uncross my arms feeling cold & angry. i feel his ring against my skin. it's cool but comforting.
"you can tell me babe, what's up?"
looking down in my lap i proceed to tell him my issue.
"ok...so i have this fan account." i glance up at him. his face is neutral, waiting for me to continue. "& normani kordei for fifth harmony followed me. i'm really really happy but i wish it was in my personal! i can't tell anyone because i don't want people to know i have a freaking fan account. i'm just kinda stuck between emotions right now. it sounds stupid i know, but i don't know what to do."
i hear a burst of laughter. shawn is completely laughing at me. he takes his hand off my knee using it to cover his mouth. now i wanna punch this perfect teeth out. i seriously feel horrible & it's just a comedy to him. when he sees my serious expression he stops abruptly. i start to turn away from him again but he pulls me so i don't.
