andrew, geoff, shawn,jake, & i are currently in a hotel room getting ready to see the stage shawn is performing at today. we just landed here in LA. he's playing the staples center & i'm honestly so proud of him. i've been on this tour with him this time and today is his last show. i couldn't be more excited to watch him perform. everyone is just waiting around till shawn comes out his room dressed. i'm wearing my nude heels with a some blue jeans & a plain top.
a few minutes later he finally decides to come out the room.
"ok i'm ready."
"about time, took you ages." geoff remarks which makes us laugh. shawn playfully rolls his eyes walking to the door as we get up & follow him. we start walking down the hotel lobby & i slow down so shawn and i can walk together. his cheeks are really rosy, i couldn't help myself so i lean in kissing his cheek. but before i could, he moves his head away from me not saying anything.
"shawn? are you ok baby?"
he turns toward me saying," yeah i'm fine just a little nervous for tonight." he gives me a reassuring smile as we continue to walk.
all of us get in the car turning up the radio. i feel shawn's knee bouncing next to me with, havana playing softly in the back.
"shawn, you're going to do great ok! you're so talented & your fans love you. so do i, don't forget that." his brown orbs look at mine for a spilt second. i lock my hands with his wanting to calm him down a bit.
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we made it to the staples center arena in time to rehearse. shawn & his team set up their instruments. they played a couple of songs & now it was time for my favorite, mercy. he only got through to the first verse before he started coughing loudly into the microphone.
"stop stop guys." shawn told them.
i sat up from the front row seeing if he needs something. he takes his guitar off walking towards the dressing room still coughing hard. everyone just watched as he left not saying anything. andrew looks mad, geoff looks confused, & jake looks sad. that's when i take off to go see what happened. by time i got there he just got out of his chair with a bottle of water in his hand.
"hey are you ok?" i rub his arm.
"yeah i just needed some liquids." he smiles at me. but it doesn't look like his regular happy smile, it looks forced.
while i'm rubbing his arm an abnormal heat comes from his skin. so i moved my hand to his forehead to quickly move it away because of the heat radiating off him. "shawn you're burning up. i think you should rest some before going back out there."
he just shakes his head saying," i'm fine aish, i can do this. i just had a set back,nothing major."
i nod not really giving into what he's saying as he walks out the dressing room.
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now it's finally time for the show & you can hear all the screaming fans. i'm so happy he has the supportive fan base he does.
it's one minute till he goes on stage. i'm back stage on the side with him. his coughing hasn't gotten any better & his voice doesn't sound ready for this at all. i've been constantly asking him, since the little incident in the dressing room, if he was ok & he kept saying he was. but i just have to ask before he goes on.
"are you really ok shawn?"
he puts his ear buds in with his guitar on," im ok aish. please. now can you go sit in the crowd i really wanna see you for this show." he finishes rubbing my arm.
i giggle kissing his lips before walking off to watch my boyfriend perform.
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after the show unfortunately shawn kept coughing & it wasn't good. he was having a hard time speaking & breathing through his nose since it was clogged up. geoff, shawn, & i went to see the doctor since shawn said its never been this bad with a cold before. we thought it was something more & it was, he has pneumonia. the doctor prescribed him some medicine we needed to get & he's on bed bound for a week. i felt really bad for shawn because i know he doesn't wanna be cooped up in a house all day. he always likes to explore & have adventures. but i am glad this was his last show so he didn't have to cancel shows.
shawn recently got a house in la so we're not in a hotel anymore. geoff & andrew went back to their homes. it was just shawn & i now. i have to take care of him but honestly i don't mind. he wants me to go home & not worry about him but he is my home, i can't just leave him knowing he's coughing & miserable.
"aish!" he yells for me from his bed. i walk to his room from the living room quickly.
"yes?" i ask cracking a giggle at how cute he looks in his sweats all bundled up in his covers peeping his face out the top.
"can you get me some tea please baby?"
"of course, i'll be back."
i run getting the already made hot tea pouring it in a cup, sprinting back to shawn's room trying not to drop the boiling hot tea.
i hand it to him," be careful it's hot."
looking up at me for a second he says," i love you."
"i love you too."
he pats at a spot on the bed while he sits up with the tea. i sit as we talk about tour for a few minutes while he finishes his tea. he softly puts it down asking," can i cuddle with you?"
i nod getting under the covers with him with my head on his chest. he puts his hand on my head, playing with my dark hair. he takes my hand kissing my soft tan skin leaving tingles after each kiss.
"thank you." he whispers among the silence.
"for what?" i look up at him with my hands around his stomach.
"what do you mean for what? you're the only one that didn't go home & knew something was wrong with me from the start. now you're taking care of me like you always do. so again i say thank you." he chuckles running his hand threw his hair then placing it back on my arm.
"you should get some rest." i smile at him.
"nah."
he starts to sit up & i get confused as to what he's doing. next thing i know he's on top of me tickling my sides.
"shawn! stop, stop please!" i can't stop laughing. every time i laugh my next laugh gets even louder & harder. his makes shawn laugh his butt off seeing me not being able to get much words out.
eventually he stops so i can go get his medicine. he hates the medicine the doctor prescribed him but he has to take it in order to get better.
"come on open up." i take the spoon full of medicine moving it around like an airplane. "here comes the airplane." i joke causing him to laugh opening his mouth wide enough for me to shove the spoon in.
after he swallows he makes a horrid face making me grin shaking my head. he sticks out his tongue saying," yuck! that's gross, i hate it!" he crosses his arms shaking his head back & forth.
i put the spoon on the dresser chuckling at his reaction. i get back in bed with him squeezing him tight. he has his head on my chest, breathing steadily. i comb through his brown locks getting a hum from him in reply. his arms are wrapped around my waist enjoying the moment.
this is what i love. not shawn being sick, but spending time with him that i normally don't have. every time he's like this i'm always the first to care for him, as i should & he should for me. we never made vows or a promise that we would be there through sickness & health but we love each other too much to not care if one of us were sick.
"i love you hun." he tells me right before his eyes close.
"i love you too shawn."
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thanks for the imagine request aish!! hope you liked it. shawnieboyimagine
