peep my illuminate (shawn mendes), first love (sabrina carpenter), the beginning (little mix), and better together (fifth harmony) references. i hate myself bye.
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i lay in bed with shawn next to me. we're cuddled in each other's arms giving warmth to each other. shawn has his shirt off as do i with just my bra and shorts. there is something so peaceful just laying with him. he holds me so gently but tight making sure i don't ever escape. i can hear his heart beating right next to mine. there's birds chirping outside & the natural sunlight is shinning on us. that's what woke me today & always wakes me up. every morning i get so happy to wake up & see the sun on shawn making him glow. he already glows naturally but when the sun hits him it's like he's illuminated. i seem to always wake up before him too. but i mean him having this career he should be sleeping. i just do college & work at an art gallery, nothing too stressful but let's be honest: life is just stressful enough.
i run my hands across his bare chest touching his chest hairs. i think it's cute when he gets some facial hair but always shaves it off even when he says he's never going to. or when he grows out his hair & he says he's never going to cut it but he always does.
reacting to my fingers, shawn opens his eyes immediately landing on mine. he smiles right away before rubbing his lids a bit. i laugh because he just looks so freaking adorable. he puts his hands back on my waist squeezing me tight but lovingly.
"shawn?"
"yeah?" he grins.
"can i tell you something?"
"sure hunny. what is it?" he then strokes my cheek with his thumb.
"i....this isn't a break up & never will be. but i just wanted to say....there are these feeling i've developed throughout the 3 years of us being together. i just...."
i go completely blank not knowing how to say those three words. i want to say them but i don't know how. shawn & i have never said it to one another but i felt like it was at least time for me to say it.
"what do you mean babygirl?" his face fills with confusion, with his brows arching. he takes his hand moving it away from my face to my waist.
"i love you." i blurt, quickly closing my eyes for a moment not wanting to see the reaction. i feel like shawn likes me but i don't know what he really feels. i feel real love when i'm with him but what if it's just on my end.
i finally open my eyes seeing a bright smile on his face. shawn then starts prepping my face all over with kisses, causing me to laugh uncontrollably. he settles down after a minute seeing that i need to breathe.
"hey, i love you too." my heart flutters with enthusiasm. shawn is my first love & i have a feeling this will last forever. there's no body like him & no one i would go better with, we are better together. i have a feeling this is only the beginning for us.
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