Living with SATAN

I hate U ,I love U

WONHO

Feeling used
But I'm still missing you and I can't see the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
against my lips and now all this time
is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you,I love you
I hate that I want you
You want HIM, you need HIM
and I'll never be HIM

I miss you when I can't sleep
or right after coffee
or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From the nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
and I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you,I would never let me go.

"Wonho hyung!"

"Huh?"

I turns to my left side and smile when I see the person.

"Hyungwon ah,you finally come back?" A teardrop rolling down as I run to hug him.

"I miss you so much! why did you left me, am I not good enough for you? Don't go to him please .Be mine instead."

I heard a cough . "Did you get sick?"

I looked at him and frown .

"Hyungwon ah why are you getting shorter?"

He laugh. "That's because I'm not him boss. I'm Jooheon.Remember your worker?"

Hyungwon suddenly turns into someone else and Jooheon's face were looking concern.

"Hyung..You need to stop listening to that song. The customers are complaining hearing the same song every day.Since Hyungwon hyung left you were spacing out too much , you gave the customer wrong orders ,you cried when you saw some couple being lovey dovey.Stop torture yourself !"

"You don't understand.Did you ever loving someone but couldn't hold them? I don't care if Hyungwon was using me as long as he stays. Hell, it hurts me to hear it whenever he called that guy's name each time we are together .Who wouldn't be hurt if you were making love with someone you loved but they screamed someone else's name instead of yours?"

Jooheon shakes his head . "See you wouldn't understand.I will be in the kitchen if you needs me"

I spun around and walk to the kitchen.

Where are you Hyungwon?

I sat on the floor ,shutting my eyes tight trying to control myself from crying.

" I miss you Jagi."

"You didn't text or call me . You even blocked my number . I don't know where are you right now but I'd prayed everyday for you to come back to me ."

I wipe my tears and unlocking my phone .

SWH:
Hyungwon ah , I know you
wouldn't read this
but I miss you.
I don't know what happen
to you and why didn't you come
back like you promised.
I love you  Hyungwon.
I just want you to know
I will always be here for you.
I said I will wait for you
and it's the truth.
Come to me  anytime
I'll accept you with open arms.

SWH:
Do you remember the first time
we met ?
You were looking for job
and I offered  you to become
my boyfriend as a joke .
Then everything happens.
I know how you feels
you still can't let go of him .
It hurts me looking at you  get hurt
because of him .
I could make you happy  and let you
forget about him
but you chose to keep the pains in yourself.

SWH:
I don't want to say anything more
because it would makes you angry.
Anyhow, my place is your place .
Come anytime if you want .

SWH:
I love you Hyungwon.
I really do.
So can you please
come back to me?
I-

Delete this message?
Yes.

I let out a relief sigh and standing on my feet.

"I shouldn't be like this .I believe he will come to me . Sooner or later ."

I put a smile on my face and walked out of the kitchen .

"Okay, let's get more customers today Jooheon ah.Fighting! Oh welcome ! What a beautiful girls we have here . Please take a seat while I'm going to bring the menu."

I laughed at Jooheon who look lost at my sudden change of mood .

I won't give up on you Hyungwon .

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Why do you try to push me away?
Tell me?
I know you don't mean it
Why do you keep pushing me away?
I feel it all
Why aren't you saying anything.