Living with SATAN

Love or guilt?

MINHYUK

"Hmmm.. yes..keep doing it" Someone was jerking my cock. It feels nice .

Since when Kihyun was this eager for morning sex, but I don't mind .I love it.

I grabbed a handful on his hair as he took me in his mouth.

"Ahhh yes baby boy.. Kihyun ahhhh!"

Then he stopped .

"I'm not Kihyun." Wait- it's not Kihyun's voice.

I immediately open my eyes and look down . "Uhm Hyungwon ah."

I groan. It was a dream. Hyungwon gets up and start yelling .

"You are still thinking about him even you are fucking me !"

"Ugh! Come on Hyungwon it's only like 6 in the morning." I sat upright on bed as I tried to regain myself.

I'm still in Hyungwon's house .
How many days has passed?
Oh yeah , it's been four days.
Kihyun wasn't replying to my text .Is he still mad at me ?

"You lied to me . You say the words love at me yet you keep thinking about him."

I flopped back on the mattress spacing out while looking at the ceiling.

Why can't I leave Hyungwon?
Do I love him? Is it strong as I felt towards Kihyun?
No . Kihyun was more than that . He is beyond everything. So why did I stayed?

I sighed . I still care about Hyungwon . I do love him .I always become soft whenever it's about him .

"You aren't even listening to me .Oh god , this is hurting me so much!"

I blinked as I was pulling back into reality. I looked over Hyungwon. He was crying again.

"Jagi come here ."

Hyungwon were sobbing yet he still walked closer . He is very different from Kihyun . He isn't stubborn, always listens to me well and didn't swears like Kihyun always did . Which is I hated it .

I pulled him closer and I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Jagi, don't get mad please? I'm sorry."

"Yeah , you always doing that. Say sorry thousands of times but still hurting me . It's been like this since before . But I'm at fault too. I let myself fallen in love with you."

I flinch . What he said is right . I keep hurting the ones I loved.

Is this what Kihyun felt?

"Hyungwon ah ,that's why I said I don't deserve you. I'm not the right person for you."

Heck , I don't even deserve Kihyun. I did him worse .

"You are just making excuses. If you love me you could always change."

I couldn't disagree . He has a point.