where will life take Rose on this crazy journey when she goes to start a new life in Minneapolis as a dancer with many hidden talents... and secrets read as new chapters in her life open and drama unfolds..and as she achieves things that she never...
we went and got smoothies and headed to his studio but I really wasn't in the mood. "Marcus no--" "Rose you haven't picked up where you left off, I haven't seen you dance, play anything you love you sit around the house all day moping" "because I have a child!" 'the world doesn't stop you still have a family and yourself to take care of you gonna give up what your good at..it will help you to feel better.." he was right I had a call from my new manager Allison talking to me about dropping music I think part of this was contributing to my break downs. I sighed "I just want to see you happy again.." "I mean I am and I love Kenzo he is a great baby I just--" "put it in the music.." I nodded my head he was right we spent hours in the studio and for a moment I was feeling goos Gin.
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Things have been getting better..hell A LOT better I've been taking medication to help my moods and going to therapy which has been working, I am getting better with Kenzo and he is amazing..I feel really confident in being a mom again and connected with my baby that's all I wanted i'm just grateful to have my family there to support me..also not to mention I wrote my next single and im dropping it along with the video...the inspiration for this song was the love for my baby....and that's the all I needed. I was sitting on the couch talking to my therapist while Kenzo was sleeping in his stroller I was pretty much at the end of my last few sessions "So Rose what is the progress this week.." "I feel great I've been back dancing , writing, working out, things are good with the baby and my moods are good too I feel good and better." "That's great Rose I am really proud of you your making progress going through this can feel tough but it is normal most women bounce back like a rubber band but I think you should be able to get off your medicine soon" "thank goodness!" "okay now you have a good day you and little kenzo" she smiled at him I got up and pushed the stroller out covering the stroller. Marcus asked me to meet him at the park today so I did.
I walked over to him on the bench looking around for cameras.."so you ready for your video shoot" "yeah I am I know a lot of people have been waiting to see if I had a boy or girl and wants to see what he looks like so yes I am excited the concept of it all was gonna be beautiful" "im glad your getting your groove back..." I drank my water bottle watching the kids play seeing some of them with their fathers Prince..was missing out.."soo I know you've seen Prince and Manuela and heard the news.." "Yup..but I avoid it ..i've gotten to a point where I can finally really say im over it so im happy they are engaged good for them two..." "he is missing out on you and kenzo you know" I nodded "if you could change anything would you..maybe listen to what people said" I shook my head "nope because I knew what i was getting into..and the relationship was amazing I've gained a lot from it and learned a lot i's just shit happens.." I started tearing up "lets change the subject" "agreed". We walked around the park for about an hour just talking then I had to get Kenzo back home for his nap.
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I fed him and got him all comfy walking around the room calming him down I gave him his pacifier and rubbed his head getting him to fall asleep.
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his eyes slowly started to close and before I knew it he was asleep on my chest I held him for a few more minutes and my grandma came in "shhh" she nodded her head walking over whispering to me
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"see I told you I knew you would get the hang of this all it takes is patience and a mothers love.." she kissed Kenzos head then walked out. I walked over towards his crib and laid him down with his blanket. I turned the crib music on tip toeing away closing the door. I took a deep breath and walked into my bedroom..I thought about the conversation Marcus and I had in the park and began writing.."but you're the worst you know what you've done to me..." I think I was ready to now start working on my album.
