Invisible

Chapter 30: I know why you did it

Rachel's POV

Blair stormed back upstairs, slamming her door in the process.

I sighed and got up, pacing around. "I knew she'd react like this," I looked at Luke. "She hates me now."

Luke looked down, he seemed angry somehow.

"Luke?"

"Hmm?" Now he definitely looked angry. "What?"

"Why are you angry?"

He sighed. "I just don't understand her. Here we are, trying to help her. But no, she pushes us away and storms off. I don't get that."

I shook my head, how could he be so blind? "Luke, she's hurt."

"Well I'm hurt too. My own sister harmed herself!" He stood up, tears were forming in his eyes. "I won't let that happen anymore."

"Luke..." I shook my head no. "Don't draw attention to her."

"I have to watch her, 24/7." He looked up, as if seeing Blair through the ceiling. "And I will." He then walked to the stairs, going upstairs.

My eyes widened, I followed him upstairs.

He went to Blair's room, wanting to enter it, but it was locked. "Blair?" He knocked on her door. "Blair, open up."

I arrived as well and gulped, I hope she's not doing something bad in there...

"Blair!"

"Stop yelling at her."

"Well she has to open the door." He started pushing and pulling at the door. "Blair!"

"Luke, stop." I pushed him aside. "This isn't the answer."

"Then what is, Rach?" He sniffled. "She's killing herself!"

"Luke!" I can't believe he just said that. "Don't say that."

He averted his attention to her door again. "Blair!" He groaned, kicking the door as well. "Blair, open up or this door will go!"

"Luke, calm down."

"Go away!" Blair shouted, she was crying, I heard it immediately. Poor Blair, she just wants some peace and quiet. "Please..." She sniffled.

"Blair, come on, open up. We have to talk." Finally he had calmed down. "This can't happen anymore, you hear me. I'll make sure of that." He sighed before pulling at the door again. "Come on, open up."

And, to my surprise, the door actually opened. And there stood Blair, her face covered in tears, her eyes puffy and red.

"Blair," Luke pulled her in for a hug, finally. He held her for quite a while before pulling back a little, he still kept on holding her. "We need to talk about this."

"We want to be there for you." I felt like I needed to step in as well.

She looked at me. "You promised not to tell him." She sniffled. "Why did you break your promise?"

Before I could answer her, Luke did. "Blair, she had to tell me. I had to know what was going on with you."

She didn't look at him, she kept looking at me. "Why did you break it?" It seems as if she hadn't heard Luke's reply. 

"Blair, I..." I didn't know what to say. Nothing would justify it. And the way she was looking at me right now... It made me feel so bad. I did indeed break my promise. "I'm sorry."

She looked down.

"Blair," Luke held Blair's shoulders, making her look at him. "We need to have a serious talk about this. Now, today."

Blair looked down, but that didn't stop Luke. He took her with him downstairs. I reached for Blair's bedroom-door, but before I closed it, I noticed a bag in her room. I never saw that one before. Was that Willow's?

I looked at the direction of the stairs before looking in the room. I looked around but didn't see anyone. Maybe she left as soon as she heard us?

"Rach?"

I closed the door and hurried downstairs. I went to sit down next to Luke, on the couch. Blair was sitting in front of us.

"Blair, can you explain me why you cut yourself?"

I looked at him, nudging him in the process. He should be more careful with his questions, it could really hurt Blair if he kept going like this...

"I don't know." She sighed, sniffling too. She was so sad, I wonder if something else happened in her room... Maybe something with Willow? Maybe that's why she wasn't there?

"Why did you cut yourself?"

Blair caressed her arms, Luke and me glanced at each other before looking back at Blair. "I wanted an escape."

"Why?"

Blair sniffled again, tears rolling down her cheeks. "The world is such a cruel place..." Her head lowered. It looked as if she had really given up, her body looked weak. "I just want peace." She covered her head in her arms, as if protecting herself from the outside. "Please."

"Blair," Luke started, making Blair look at him. "You can't escape the world. You have to face it, you have to get over your fear."

"But Luke, I - "

"I know." He patted her knee. "I've done some research." He looked at me before looking back at Blair. "We'll get through this, I know what to do." He stood up, seemingly ready with his 'serious conversation'. "Come on, get ready for school."

Blair stood up and walked back upstairs.

Luke looked at her, while smiling proudly. I wonder why he's proud... I nudged him, getting his attention immediately. "Why did you do that?"

"What?" He looked so confused. He really thought he did the right thing...

I motioned to the direction Blair went in. "Is that a serious conversation?"

Luke shrugged. "We talked, and now she knows I know. Isn't that the most important thing."

I blinked a few times before actually answering. "What? What do you mean?"

He walked to his backpack. "Well she wanted me to notice her, I did."

"Luke," I sighed. Keep calm, Rachel. "She didn't do this so you'd notice her. There's something else behind this behavior, but we - "

"Rach," He caressed my arms. "I know my sister the best. And I'll take care of this situation from now on." 

I sighed, but before I could say something, Blair came down. Luke walked her to his car. We all entered and drove to school.

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