voices | taegi [completed]

two

a/n : this part is triggering so trigger warning

— 3rd

tae wakes up with a start.
panting. sweaty. teary.
the full package.

he turns to see if he had awaken jimin and hoseok.
but they were fast asleep in each other's arms.
"such a cute couple." tae thought.
tae slowly creeps into the bathroom carefully closing the door.

he rests his back onto the wall and sits on the floor.

rolling up his sleeve to release his right arm filled with old scars that were not healed.

he gets out his blade.

he point the blade to his wrist.
pressing it lightly.

do it.

you're fucking useless.

tae drags the blade across his wrist.
creating a big ugly line.
blood flowing out.
tears falling from his eyes.

another one.

for being so fucking dumb.

another cut was made.
more blood.
more tears.

for being a fucking mistake.

do it.

the blade was already covered with tae's blood.
tae's face was filled with tears.

more.

you're so fucking ugly.

stupid.

fat.

a whore.

finally, the voices had stopped.
by that time, tae already had 6 cuts.
his shirt drenched in tears and had stains of blood.

pain, relief and sadness were one of the few emotions he was feeling.
behind that amazing boxy smile he had, he was masking all his sadness away.

tae cries into his hands for a few minutes before getting up and washing the blade and his right arm.
tae hisses in pain as the water hugs his scars.

he wraps his scars with some bandages.
takes his blade.
and quietly goes back to bed.

* * * * *

morning came and the boys were getting ready to go to the studio.
they were excited as they were going to record their song for the comeback.
this is also going to be the first time that they hear tae sing.

tae wakes up and gets out his clothes.
a grey sweater, black skinny jeans and a simple pair of white converse.

he quickly finishes showering and goes down for breakfast.

"good morning hyungs! good morning ggukie!" tae cheers happily.

tae boys smile at the quirkyness of their new member.

"morning tae!" a chorus a reply comes from all the boys except one.

someone's missing.

"where's yoongi hyung?" tae asks.

"he's still asleep, why don't you wake him up tae?" jin suggests.