voices | taegi [completed]

seventeen

— 3rd

the boys eye tae's wrist like hawks.
tears spill put of their eyes as their mind races with questions.

yoongi sighs heavily and brings the younger closer to him.
tae smiles and snuggles into yoongi's chest.
the older male takes his wrist into his own hands.

yoongi examines the bruised wrist with tears streaming down his face.
his head spinning and his thoughts clouding his mind.

tae stirs in his sleep to find himself in his boyfriend's warm embrace.
tae rubs his eyes to find his bandages unwrapped.
he gasps in shock and lifts up his head to find all his members staring at him with tears.

"b-baby. why?" yoongi choked out as he gently takes a hold of tae's wrist.

tae whimpers in fear.
tears brim at his eyes, threatening to fall.
jimin walks closer to the smaller male and kneels in front of him.

"t-tae. why, j-just why a-are you d-doing this?" jimin croaks out.

tae looks at his family in fear of being judged.
his members looking at him with nothing but love and sadness.
and the grey head can't help but feel guilty.

"i-i'm s-sorry." tae whispers and runs to the bathroom.

he immediately shuts the door and locks it.
he allows his loud, heavy, heartbreaking cries out.
his sobs filling the entire bathroom.

the boys outside the bathroom cry in unison.
banging on the door and pleading tae to come out.

the voices in the poor boy's mind just screaming at him.
his cuts begging and pleading for him to litter more.
and just everything was criticising tae.

such a burden.

you don't deserve yoongi.

he'll leave you.

he deserves so much better.

crawling to the counter, tae gets out his best friend.
the blade.
he smiles sadly knowing that this will be his escape.

pressing the sharp object onto his beautifully scared wrist, he presses it harder than ever.
the blood spilling out of the cuts like usual, making tae giggle in happiness.
fear filling his veins yet he finds comfort in the beautiful painting his doing.

his sweater now stained with blood and his hands and wrist bloody and red.
face filed with tears and fear coursing through his veins.

his mind hazy from negativity and the scary voices that seem to be louder than ever.
the banging on the bathroom door still going on.

"t-tae baby. please o-open the door. w-we c-can h-help you." tae sobs in hearing his beloved boyfriend crying because of him.

"i can't b-be h-helped h-hyung." tae whispers loud enough for them to hear.

his vision now blurry.
black spots appearing all over his vision.
his hands shake in pain and his mind pounding harshly as the voices scream at him.

he's tired of you.

you're useless.

garbage.

"b-baby? t-tae?" yoongi frantically shouts as he rattles with his doorknob.

"i'm s-sorry. i'm so s-sorry for b-being such a burden." tae whispers out before allowing the darkness to welcome him.

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hey guys!
so ooo, another cliffhanger?
idk, i just love cliffhangers *laughs evilly but ends up choking on air*
anyways, i saw something on instagram and i was thinking if i should write it as a oneshot.
i'm not sure. :)
anyways, i've been feeling really suicidal lately.
the monsters in my head just keep growing stronger.
and i'm scared.
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kay bye my angels ~ ❤️