Shotgun Marriage [w/ Compilation; No Soft Copy]

22: Insomnia

"Hindi yan totoo Blair! Kung alam mo lang kung ilang beses akong nag-test para lang patunayan na hindi talaga 'to totoo pero Blair... sya lang... sya lang ang lalaking nakasama ko." 

"How would I know?! Alam ko naman Tricia eh... I know you still love Alfred but I don't think he still loves you... kaya kahit anong pilit mo hindi na sya babalik sayo. Ano bang kelangan mo at bumalik ka pa?! Pera?! HA?!" 

"Hindi ko kelangan ng pera, Blair! What I want is a father for my child."

"At sino sa tingin mo yun? Si Alfred? Alam mo namang may asawa na sya Tricia. Kung ako sayo, hindi ko na 'to ginawa at hinding hindi na ako magpapakita kay Alfred."

I stood up. Wala kang kwentang makipag-usap dito. Nasasaktan lang ako. Nasaaktan ako habang nanggagalaiti sa galit at inis. Tama ng isang beses ko syang nasampal. Tama na yun. ayokong maging brutal. 

"Blair!" she called when I was about to go. "Please, I'm begging you... please let me talk with Alfred." 

I smirked in disbelief. She's crazy and desperate. 

"Ayoko. Please lang ha! Humanap ka na lang ng iba mong maloloko, wag na si Alfred! He won't believe you!" I told her.

"really?!" tumayo na rin sya. "Before you, Blair, ako lang! Ako lang ang pinapaniwalaan ni Alfred! What makes you think he won't believe me? Balir... I'm telling the truth."

"Like yeah.. Liar. I know you're telling a lie, Tricia! I know..." but I myself even think that I'm lying.

Ano ang nararamdman ko ngayon? Nasasaktan. Nasasaktan ako. Hindi ko mapaliwanag kung gaano kasakit pero masakit sya na parang ayaw ko munang umuwi. Pero hindi... I have to. I have to go home and secure Alfred beside me.

"Please Blair."

"then what?"

She kept silent.

"See? Then what will you do? Kasal na ang lalaking hinahabol mo. OO nga't nauna kang naging girlfriend pero ako ang asawa. Ako ang legal wife. Ako ang kasama. I don't want you to be a homewrecker, Tricia. I'm doing this for you, girl." And for me... I'm saving my family. "Kaya please, wag ka na lang magpakita sa kanya. May masisira ka lang. And if you're telling the truth, just keep it with you... and find another man... not my husband."

I went off.

Sobrang tulala lang ako sa paglalakad sa mall. At ang totoo...

"Hey!" I saw him. Ang isa sa mga taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko. One of the people who gives smile in me.

"Troy!" sa park... I hugged him when he got near me.