Yana's POV
Whoever said that time heals all wounds is an inexperienced person. He / she hasn't felt the pain that would seep in our heart, or how hard it is to live every single hell-day of your life just to show to everyone he / she is fine.
I have my fair share of regrets in life, but I haven't regretted anything more than that thing. Everyday I ask myself : " Have I been too selfless? Where did I get the strength to rip my own heart and survive the signs of insanity it brings? Did I become too bitter that I've forgotten how to care? Have I reacted recklessly, that I didn't even think about saving myself? "
I know the answer is no. Well, I assume that it's the right thing. I have made up my mind and decided to leave for the good of everyone. It's not healthy for me to stay and watch them. It is suicidal. It's killing your own self.
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It has been years, yet I could not forget every single detail of what happened in that chapter of my life. Would it always hurt this much? I don't know. I thought moving away would be the answer. It did hide and held the pain back, but they would always be memorable.
I hummed as I stood up from the bed. The other side was empty, and I smiled. I pressed the play button of the CD player, and went to the walk-in closet. Clothes filled every space you could see.
My clothes are organized, but they're plenty. I picked out a long sleeved white turtleneck and paired it with a printed red skirt. My pumps lay untouched on the floor. I picked it up and placed it in front of my vanity. Then, I took my robe and made my way to the kitchen.
I searched for the eggs and break at the cupboards. Then, I sliced the cheese. The next song played, and I smiled. The smell of the cooked eggs made my stomach rumble. As I flipped the eggs to it's other side, hands snaked on my waist. With the smell of food was the minty smell of sweat. Someone moved my ponytailed hair to the other side. Kisses were planted on my neck.
"Good morning babe" A husky voice rang in my ear. Oh gosh. If I'm not so hungry, damn, I would let desire took over.
"Indeed. It's good because of you." I turned back so I could kiss his cheeks. But then, he has other plans. He moved his head and closed to stove. With his strong arms, he lifted me and placed me at the counter. Before I know it, my lips are warm.
"Stop it." I giggled.
"Good morning Josh." I said
"Good morning Yana." He hugged me.
Hello Philippines. Meet my guy, Josh. Matagal ko nang kilala si Josh. Mas nauna kaming magkakilala ni Josh kaysa nila. Call me childish, pero hindi ko pa rin masabi yung pangalan nila ng hindi tinatamaan.
Si Josh ang unang lalaking nagustuhan ko, way back kindergarten pa yata yun. Paano ko siya hindi matatandaan, eh ilang taon ko yan naging kaklase. Kulang na lang, ipagtabuyan ko siya dahil nasusulasok na ko pag nakikita ko sila. Ohwell. Paano ba kami nagkatagpo ng landas ngayong nasa Amerika ako?
**** Flashback
Kakatapos lang ng meeting ng group namin, tapos medyo malayo pa yung tinutuluyan ko mula sa dorm ng groupmate ko. Then, I'm starving. Pumunta ako sa cafeteria, may kasunod ako. Talikod naman daw ako kasi nakakagulat. Tapos tinignan ko siya ng maigi kasi familiar mukha niya.
"Have I seen you before?" Tanong niya.
"Not that I know." Nagblush ako. Hindi ako sanay ng nakikipag-usap sa mga di ko talaga kakilala e, lalo na't wala akong masyadong close dito. So, hinintay ko yung order ko, biglang nagslip yung isang answer sheet ko. Dinampot niya naman, then tinitigan ng maigi yung pangalan.
"Alyanna M-Martinez?" Nanlaki yung mata niya. Nakaglasses pa siya nun!XD
"Uh. Y-Yea." Kinakabahan ako. Bigla na lang, tinanggal niya yung salamin ko.
"H-He.." Bago pa ako sumagot, nagsmile siya at hinug ako. Yung tindera, nakatitig sa order namin.
"Di mo na ako naaalala?" Nagpout siya.
"Uhh.." Nalilito ako. Sino ba 'to? Pinakita niya yung student card niya.
"Josh!!" AAAAAAAH! Nakasulat sa card : Joshua Salvador.
**** Flashback Ends
"Ang sweaty mo na." I giggled again. Ang cute niya kasi. Black hair, black and mesmerizing eyes, medyo pale na skin. Ang hirap niya idescribe.
"Umagang umaga, ang irresistible mo." He smirked before picking me up again.
"Umagang umaga, ang landi mo." Nagbelat ako sa kanya.
"Umagang umaga, pinapalandi mo ako." Smirk ulit.
"Nagugutom na ko. Malandi." Tinarayan ko ng unti. Maghahanda na dapat ako ng kakainan, pero hinila niya ako.
"Umagang umaga, pinapagod mo sarili mo. Ako mag-aayos." Then kiniss niya ako sa forehead. When will we ever get tired of kissing? Dreamy.
"You spoil me too much." Para akong bata na nanunuod sa kanya. Ngiti lang siya.
"Syempre, mahal kita e." Sabay lagay ng plate sa harap ko.
"Love you Yana." Then, he caressed my cheeks and brushed my bangs.
"Love you too, Josh."
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To be continued ..
