prosthetic leg ⚣ joshler [✔︎]

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i sat by the window again. i thought. i miss my brother. why did he have to die? why him¿

he left. he didn't leave a note. he just left. i didn't even get a 'goodbye'.

why am i even blaming him for the demons in his head? it's not his fault. i'm just being selfish. but oh how i miss him.

i cried. the first cry i had had in days. weeks, even. i let it all out. i just let everything drain me at the moment. i was drowning it felt like. in my own sorrow.

drown. drown. drown.

i wish i could drown my thoughts and demons. hopefully no one would've saved them. sometimes i was scared that the demons would drag me with them, down to the deepest ocean there is. and leave me there. but i wasn't scared now. i was ready.

i wish my baby brother would be here right now. i wish we could cuddle in his bed. i wish he would tell me everything was gonna be alright, as i said the same to him.

are you coming back?
i'm waiting.

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