Dancing In the Dark - an Austin Porter fanfic

#Chapter 6 - Hold Tight

*Austin's Pov*

She eventually fell asleep...

I didn't say anything but I don't know why... when I heard her saying that, I realize that I shoudn't have said that stupid thing. Was she really talking about a friend? She probably was, she's falling for Brandon so she wasn't talking about herself, but I still shoudn't have said that, in the end of the day she is a beanz and I would date any girl like her, beanz or not. I looked to the side and saw her cuddled in my sheets with them covered up to the neck, her redhead hair were dropped all over my pillow and she had a serene face, she was sleeping so peacefully and for moments I tought she looked like an angel. I stared at her for a couple of minutes and then I finaly moved and got out of bed, I did my way to the couch and sat there for hours thinking about everything and at the same time, thinking about nothing, untill I also fell asleep.

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*(Y/N)'s Pov*

I woke up in the midle of the night, Austin was no longer there, I got up and went to the kitchen but while I was passing in the living room I saw him sleeping deeply but sitting and not lying in the couch. I stoped for some breef moments, and got closer to him, I tried to wake him up but he was really sleeping heavily. I put my arms under his chest and tried my best to lie him down on the couch, grabbed a pillow and carefully lifted his head puting the pillow underneath. He kept sleeping and I grabbed a blanket from the other side of the couch and covered Austin with it. Now maybe he won't wake up with some serious pain in his back and neck. When I got to the kitchen grabbed a cup of water and went outside and sat in a lounge chair, my mind traveled for the past days... I heard someone coming closer to me, I looked at the side and saw Nick.

"Hey Nick..."- I said waving

"Hey (Y/N), I was just passing by and saw you here, it's everything okay?" - he asked sitting beside me

"I don't really know if I can say that I'm okay, I was just thinking about the past days..." - I confessed

"It's about Austin and Brandon, right?" - he asked

"You too, really? For god sake, is that so obvious??" - I asked and gave him a nervous smile.

"Kind of, yes. Brandon has been talking about you a lot and Austin is all pissed off because of that, so... if 2+2 is 4, then yes is that obvious..." - he laughed - "Come on... shoot, you can tell me everything that is bothering that beanz mind of yours." - he smiled and turned around facing me. I took a deep breath and asked if he was sure about hearing all my crap and he said yes, so I started.

"So much happened this past days...I've met Prettymuch, one of my dreams, I had a date with Brandon and great moments with my crush Austin Porter." - I blushed because I was telling Nick I had a crush on Austin. - "One week ago I though I had a crush on Austin like any other beanz but now, I no longer know... Every feeling I had before, I have now but ten times worse... Brandon took me one a date to a fancy restaurant and danced with me in front of everyone, he was sweet and romantic, he even tried to kiss me today... that would be any girl's dream with that boy... Austin on the other side took me to a park, we eaten hot dogs and watched anime but the way Brandon made me feel couldn't never be compared with the way Austin made me, when I was with Austin I felt like I was in some secret dimension living a dream. When he got closer to me and he loosed my hair, and when he wiped my lipstick I lost my breath, I can't avoid losing myself in Austin's eyes every time he looks at me, but there's no way I can make a move because in one moment he's driving me crazy and the next moment he speaks like if he do those things to everyone, he speaks in general, like when he was saying I dindn't need make-up or anything to look good, then he said "I don't want THE BEANZS to think", he wasn't saying those things about me, he was saying those things about millions of girls around the world. I feel more and more that I am understanding all of this wrong... how could I ever think one of my idols would ever fall in love for me the same way I fell for him... Brandon on the other side showed he would like to have something with me and gave me real signals... I'm so fucked up right now..." - I putted my head between my knees - "Sorry for the speech..." - I apologized to Nick