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NO HUMAN CONTACT. EVER.
In order to survive , this was the rule Pip had to follow. Why? Because human contact was a death sentence. Completely fatal.
So why did the distan...
--thirtythree- (A different kind of chapter) - please listen to the song above!
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+ I've been told, I've been told to get you off my mind. But I hope I never +
+ lose the bruises that you left behind. Oh my Lord, oh my Lord, I need you by my side. +
+ Lewis Capaldi +
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PLEASE COME BACK.
I would say that to him if he could hear me somehow. I know, because I've been asking myself the same question for 13 hours: if I could ask Charleston one thing, what would it be? I'd also planned out how I would say it, what would follow, what would be enough.
I've rehearsed other things I want to say to people in the time since he'd been gone. I've shut myself out - I won't even look at MiKinley, and I've told Ava and Thea that I just need some space. They told me they understood, but they didn't. Truly, I hoped they would never feel as overwhelmed and disorientated as I did in those first 13 hours.
I don't know who Charleston is to me. He is someone who changed the meaning of everything - he's turned my world upside down. I don't know him, but I want to.
I want to know why it hurt so much when he left.
- t w o
WHERE DOES HOPE come from?
And where does it go when it leaves? To God? I've tried asking for it back, but it shows no signs of returning. Maybe we were never supposed to have it in the first place.
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ITS BEEN THREE days.
Seventy two hours. Five thousand, seven hundred and sixty minutes without him. I still can't describe the shift that has occurred in the universe. The way I feel in his absence.
I've been counting the hours as if I'm counting them down. There it is, again: hope.
It doesn't exist in this place without him.
- f o u r
I STILL CAN'T forgive MiKinley.
It is breaking him, I know, and the part of me that misses him wants to forget what he did, but there is something much greater inside that won't let me. I think it's the truth.
He is the one who had Charleston taken away.
I sit and wait by the creek. For what? For answers? For understanding? For Charles?
For something.
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I'M QUITE AFRAID. Quite afraid of what is happening inside my head.
Maybe he isn't just some guard that wondered in to The Dormir with a mission from my father. Maybe he is more than that.
What if he is more than that?
What if he isn't?
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I DON'T KNOW why, but I do.
I miss him terribly.
I ache.
- s e v e n
HOW CAN YOU explain someone you don't know?
Easy: you explain all the ways in which they aren't there.
- e i g h t
INFINITY CAN FIT into eight days.
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I wasn't really sure where I was going with this, but I like it.
