P.S. I'm Dying

MARIZ

MARIZ

I went to my car after kong tignan ang address ni Gabe sa personal infos niya sa front page ng journal.

I did not start the engine. Nate-tempt akong tignan ang last page.

But I closed my eyes first, reminiscing.

I can still remember Gabe's face, crying.

After kasi ng Graduation pumunta siya sa bahay, tapos nagkwento siya, sinabi niya na nakita niyang nagyakap si Sheryl at Lex sa backstage after Graduation. Sinabi niyang gusto na niyang kalimutan lahat pero sobrang mahal niya si Lex at hindi niya alam kung makakalimutan pa niya kahit nandiyan na bigla si Anthony na umaali-aligid.

That was my last picture of her. After that we never saw each other again. Naging busy kami sa new school, college life, and new friends.

I stared at the last page.

There are only six words written there. Six words glimmered in a glittered gel pen.

I can still smell the new set of ink printed on the paper. . .

November 27, 2016
I'm still in love with Lex.

She wrote that last week, because it is just December 5, 2016 today.
It means that she still loves him. . .

Maybe. . .

Pero dapat bang malaman ito ni Lex? I don't know, he is broken!
Ugh. I don't know what to do! Bakit ba kasi hinayaan ko ang sarili kong masali sa gulong ito?

I gulped.

He should know about it. He obviously didn't reach the last page as what he said awhile ago.

He gives up.

Siguro may nabasa siyang nagpatigil na talaga sa kaniya and I want to know what page is that.

I badly want to know.

My phone rang.

"Bakit ka tumatawag Kriztie?" kalamado kong tanong sa kabilang linya noong sinagot ko na.

"Hindi ko makontact yung imbyernang receptionist niyo! Magpoproduce ng interview ang magazine namin diyan!" sigaw niya sa akin.

Napaisip ako bigla sa sinabi niya. . . ang alam ko kasi katrabaho niya si Gabe.

"Oh, sige, kailan ba yan? Maluwag kami ni Lex ngayon." sagot ko. "Ikaw ba mag-iinterview?"

"Nah. Ipi-feature ni Gabe sa mag namin ang resto niyo."

Her voice vibrated through my ears and it left a smile on my face. "Kailan?"

"Tommorow if you can,"

"Pasalamat ka, old classmate ka. Kundi next week pa kayo makakaabot dito kapag nilagay kayo sa schedule." natatawang sambit ko, although biro ko lang talaga sa kaniya iyon.

"Akala ko ba maluwag kayo ngayon, Mariz?" naguguluhang tanong niya.

Tumawa lang ulit ako, "Ah, nevermind. Busy sched pala ako, but sure. Si Lex ang interview-hin niyo."

"Okay, that will do, besides he holds it first bago ka dumating right?"

"Absolutely." then I ended the with a smirk on my lips.