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“ Where were you all this time ?!
I always get scared when I can’t find you at College . Don’t ever get lost ”,
he had said .
And now , all she wanted was to get lost so that he never finds her again .
Funny , both looked at each other from the door on the other end
of the same room ,
she waited for a while and
started walking towards him ,
the front door of the room . .
people were walking in between blocking her view
every now and then ,
finally when she was there ,
she entered the room
to find him nowhere .
“ But he was here
just a while ago ,
where did he disappear
so suddenly ? ”
She came to a halt
in the middle of the room
when she saw him standing
on the other end
beside the back door ,
from where she was seeing him standing at the front door
just a minute ago .
He smiled and she smiled back .
But deep down
a thought disturbed her ,
“ What if they both lose each other
in the search of each other ? ”
And as she feared ,
they did .
Every other night
they ended up falling asleep
receiving wounds from each other .
Neither of them could
push away the other and
run for their lives .
The pain was so overwhelming .
Yet they kept holding on
to each other even after
all those ugly suffocating arguments .
Neither of them was ready to leave .
Neither of them was ready to
let go of the other .
Stubborn , they were both ,
so damn stubborn .
This wasn’t the kind of love that
you could let go just because
it wasn’t as unsullied as it was
in the beginning .
And this also wasn’t the
kind of love that approved
of the saying ,
“ Not every good story has to necessarily last forever ”.
This WAS a forever .
This WAS meant to last till the end .
They just didn’t love each other .
Even in the darkest of times
when they despised each other ,
they didn’t let go of
each other’s hands .
Sometimes it occurred to her that
this in fact was not the love
the world knew and knows .
Because they just didn’t
love each other,
they demanded each other .
Just as like light demands darkness and darkness demands back light .
Just as like love demands hatred
and hatred demands back love .
They were opposites .
But one’s existence
demanded the other’s .
They were a conflict
but so amazingly inseparable .
When one was white ,
the other was black ,
when one was black ,
the other was white .
They kept switching roles .
But never gave up
playing the roles .
Their love demanded to be felt
even at the cost of
irrevocable wounds .
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into her phenakistoscope
Poetry«« when her life was at a halt , an illusion of motion was created and in her dreamlike state , her reality and her imagination met and gave her a blurred vision , her phantasmagoria took birth where her soul saw dreams of a...
