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But still a part of me wants to sin .
Still a part of me wants you for a moment , not forever ,
but just for a moment .I don't love you ,
but ...
I love that ' h e l l o ' you wave at me ,
every time we happen to pass
each other's ways .I don't love you ,
but I love that smile of yours .
I can't help but love that
smile of yours .I don't want to talk to you ,
but . .
I want to keep seeing you like that . . everyday .I want you to wave a hello at me
every time I cross your path
and you cross mine .We had our eyes locked to each others'
quite a few times ,
yes ,
our eyes did meet .
But , that day you weren't wearing that million dollar sparkling grin of yours ;
your smile . .
It was a nervous one . .
I noticed .
I noticed .I don't love you .
No , neither do I want to .I just . .
I just want to be that swift wind
coming from no where ,
all of a sudden ,
blowing your hair and startling you ,
with the sudden
short lasting pleasure .I want to be that whirlwind
that will give
a sudden ripple of loud beat ,
inside your ribcage .I want to pass you like an invisible
unnoticed fragrance
and before you can
even find out its source ,
I want to be gone .I want to be that sound of bell ringing
all of a sudden and waking you up
from the monotony .I want you to see me ,
but I want you to see me disappearing .I want to be that light which you can never feel on your skin
warming you up .I want to be the song that will
make you escape into a world
which doesn't exist ,
but before you completely realize the enchantment of it ,
the song will end ,
abruptly .I want no spoken words between us .
I want silent whispers and
unpronounced words .I want to be the faint but
ever existing scent in the air
around you .I want an unwritten untold story .
I want a hidden secret .
I want to be the girl from nowhere
who'll just peep through the
window of your mind
but just to be gone the next moment
and never to stay there .I want to come just to go away .
I want to appear just to disappear .I want to be the melody
you will never get to listen
till the ending .I want to be the book
you'll want to read so bad ,
and you'll have it too ,
in your palms one day ,
and when you'll be just a split second away from turning the pages
and from getting to unravel the mystery and read the words of
the first sentence there ,
the book will fade away ,
right in front of your eyes ,
the printed black ink will be dissolved
by the overwhelming white
of the unturned paper .I want to be the riddle
you'll never get to solve .
I want to be the tale
you'll never get to read .I want to be your unseen dream ,
your unwished wish .I want to be that one moment
in your life
in which you'll
skip a heartbeat .I want to be that enchanting view
right in front of your eyes ,
but yet so far away .I want to be as swift as wind ,
as momentary as a sound and
as short as a dream ,
in your life .You'll be my uncommitted sin .
I'll be your unfelt heartbeat .I'm just being reckless .
I guess I'm just having
a little adventure ,
a short lasting fantasy .
I'm just secretly escaping from my home . .
to just live for a while
in an imagination
I swear I never intended
to even imagine .I need to stick to the principles
I established ,
I must stick to the promises
I made to myself . .
and those unuttered promises
I made to him .
I promised myself that
I'll never lose my head again ,
I must not let the free fall
cloud my mind .
I must not fall for you . .And ,
trust me ,
I didn't .
I didn't .I can't love you .
I don't love you .I'm already taken
and . .
well . .
you . .
you are my uncommitted sin
and shall always be one .××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
[If this girl's words have
touched your soul ,
matter not how faint
the sensation felt ,
would you mind dears ?
if she wished for you to tap on that minuscule star beneath
and send kudos to her ,
please ?] :)
YOU ARE READING
into her phenakistoscope
Poetry«« when her life was at a halt , an illusion of motion was created and in her dreamlike state , her reality and her imagination met and gave her a blurred vision , her phantasmagoria took birth where her soul saw dreams of a...