Choosing You

Chapter 39 - Second Time

Draft - May 09, 2017

Chapter 39 - Second Time

Jillian

I don't know what came into my mind pero bigla na lang akong nag open up kay Elijah. Hindi naman siguro masama na ikwento ko sa kanya yung mga pinag daanan ko ng ilang taon. I was hurt and get bitter. Itinago ko ang lahat ng sakit, yinakap ko ang lahat ng sakit at hindi ko namalayan na naging parte na iyon ng pagkatao ko.

I guarded my heart and protect it from other people.

Until one day, I realized I can't escape from the truth na kahit anong takbo ko palayo at kahit gaano kataas na pader pa ang itayo ko mahal ko pa din si Oli.

I move on from the pain I felt when she didn't choose me but it doesn't mean na hindi ko na siya mahal. Alam ko ang totoo at hindi ko ma itatanggi ang katotohanan na mula noon at hanggang ngayon siya pa din ang sinisigaw ng puso ko.

Si Olivia Valderama pa din ang mahal ko.

"Bumalik ka na lahat-lahat hindi ka man lang nag pa kita sa akin." I heard some say kaya napa angat ako ng tingin sa direksyon nito.

There I see my other best friend standing in front of my table.

Ganun na ba kalalim ang iniisip ko na hindi ko man lang namalayan na may pumasok sa office ko.

"I'm sorry medjo busy lang ako." i apologetically said.

"It's okay, I know hindi mo naman ako priority." Sadness is visible to her face and I feel guilty.

"Stephanie." I called her name

"It's okay, Jillian." She tries to smile in front of me " Anyway, I just came here to give you this. " saka nilapag ang isang invitation card with a ticket " Tammy want to invite you to her concert she actually want to give it to you personally kaso busy siya but since around the area lang ako I decided na dalhin na lang yan on her behalf." Mahabang paliwanag nito but I wasn't even focusing on what she just naka focus ako sa mga pag babago sa kanya. She grew up to be a wonderful woman I bet madaming lalake ang naka pila sa kanya but her eyes is gloomy.

Guilt is eating my whole system. I am her best friend and Trina too. But I took Trina away from her when I decided to put a wall between us when I learned about her feelings towards me. I am selfish at hindi ko man lang siya inisip. I left her alone. I left my best friend alone.

" Are you busy today? " I asked na halatang ikinagulat niya

"Actually..."

I cut her off " Never mind, don't bother to answer because I will not take no as answer." I said sabay kuha ng phone ko and inform my secretary to cancel my afternoon meetings to bond with my best friend Stephanie.

I guess, it's time to give her back what I took away and that is her best friend in me.

Oli

Isang nakaka boring na hapon ang nag dala sa akin dito sa mall. Ilang linggo na ang lumipas ng naka balik si Jillian at walang araw ang lumipas na hindi siya nag lalagi sa utak ko. I want to take her off my mind pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko iyon magawa.

I should feel relieve when she said she moved on and she chooses to be my friend pero hindi iyon ang naramdaman ko.

I feel confused dahil hindi ko magawang maging masaya sa isang bagay na ginusto ko.

Sa tuwing nakikita ko siya hindi ko mapigilang hindi mapansin yung mga pag babago sa kanya. and every time I see her pakiramdam ko ibang Jillian ang nasa harap ko.