Twinception / Originalshipping (Editing)

Chapter 14: Regrets

I stayed on the porch for a few more minutes. I can't go back inside. Blue has
probably already told everyone how much of an asshole I am. I've betrayed my
boyfriend and sister, but then again he did too. Will he actually tell anyone since he did
the same this also? I can't think about this right now, I need to leave.

     I got up to leave the party completely. I don't have the balls to tell Green that I'm
leaving, or my sister. I'll just feel even more horrible. I put out my third cigarette and
got up to leave. I checked my phone to see if anyone has contacted me, but I didn't have
any messages. I guess he is still busy. Why couldn't Blue take care of his friend? This
whole thing could have been avoided! I would have had sex with Green instead of his
brother! I can't blame this on anyone else, I did this knowing it was wrong. I couldn't
control myself. It brought the bad out of me, but it felt too good. The atmosphere of the
night describes how I feel. Dark, gloomy, and cold.

     I arrived home a little after eleven, and Mom was now home. She's asleep in her bed
right now, so hopefully she won't here Leaf stumbling home drunk. I didn't even bother
showering. I didn't even take off my clothes. I got straight into bed and just laid there. I
feel so guilty. I can't stop thinking about Green. I had something perfect with him, and
now it's ruined. I'm such a fuck up.

I woke up the next morning with three missed calls from Green, one voice mail, and
two texts. The texts said:
"Where are you?"
"I'm done dealing with Gold."
Those were sent at midnight. They must have taken him home or something. The
voicemail said:
"Hey Red, I've looked everywhere for you. Did you go home? Call me when you get
this."
I started crying when I heard his voice. He has such a perfect voice. I need to tell him
that I'm alright, but I can't face him. Maybe sending a text will be okay. If he calls me,
I'll just end up crying.
"Hey, I went home last night. Sorry for leaving."
I struggled to type that. I'm not gonna leave my room today. I wonder if Leaf ever came
home? I'm sure she's fine. I got reply from Green.
"Are you okay? I was worried about you all night?"
Dammit, the tears are pouring down right now.
"Yeah, it was getting late, I couldn't find you, so I left."
Ugh, I just lied.
"You wanna hang out later?"
No.
"I can't, I don't feel too well."
I technically didn't lie. I'm an emotional wreck. I feel awful.
"Okay, do you need anything? Medicine? Lunch?"
Stop being so nice! I'll just cry even more! I feel even more like shit. He cares so much
for me, and I've betrayed him.
"No thanks, thanks though."
"Leaf crashed at my house last night by the way, Blue dragged her here since she was
too drunk."
I threw my phone across the room after that message. I don't want to hear any mention
of his name for the rest of my life.
I should text him back. I got up to retrieve my phone.
"Alright, send her home when she's ready."
"Will do."
Maybe I could keep this thing a secret from him and Leaf. Blue clearly hasn't told him.
I'll just hope that Blue won't say a word about it. That sounds good. I know that I said I
was gonna stay in bed all day, but I'm too hungry.

I walked down the stairs and entered the kitchen to make me some lunch. I didn't
realize that I slept in this late. Mom bought chicken nuggets, so I'll make some of those.
I heated up the oven and place the nuggets on a cooking tray. I watched the news while
they were cooking. Team Rocket's base or hideout or whatever it is has been raided by
the international police and the boss is in custody. There has been rumor that the
Casino in Celadon was ran by them. I guess it was true. This is actually pretty big.
They've been searching for it for months. Once the oven went off, I put my nuggets on a
plate and headed upstairs. I sat down on my bed and turned the news back on. I put one
nugget in my mouth when I heard the front door open. That must be Leafy, and it was. I
could hear her laughing and her heals clomping up the stairs. I heard her enter her
room and shut the door, but there's still footsteps in the hall. She usually crashes in her
bed all day the day after she gets hammered. The footsteps stopped right in front of my
room, and I watched the door open as fucking Blue walked in.
"Get out." I said sternly.
"What's your problem? I just to see how you're doing." He replied.
"I don't want to see you!" I yelled.
"Look, about last night. I'm not gonna tell anyone about it. Besides, I couldn't if I
wanted to. No one knows that I swing both ways. I don't want to hurt my brother or
your sister." He explained.
"Is that all?" I asked, controlling my anger.
"You were great last night." He replied with a devilish smirk.
I felt my temper raise to the max. I can't believe he just fucking said that!
"GET OUT!" I screamed as I threw a nugget at him. Blue closed the door and left the
house. I want to die. I started crying again. I want to forget all about it. At least no one
will know about it. I still hate him.

When I was done eating my lunch, I decided to check on Leaf. I walked into her room
and saw her sprawled out on her bed, knocked out. Typical Leaf. I miss Mom. I wish she
was home more often. She hasn't had a break for anything since Dad left. He's a real
dirtbag. I would feel better if she was here. But I can't rely on anyone else on the
mistakes that I've made, I have to overcome them on my own. Even though I'm lying to
two very important people to me, I'll distract myself from it. I'll run more. Running
clears my mind.