CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
To Last
I want to hug him because he's right in front of me! I want to ask him why he's here in Manila and at the party.
God! I miss him so much!
"I, I got invited by Tina, she's my friend it's her boyfriend's birthday. I didn't plan to dance but my friends dragged me in the dance floor and made me drink a shot and I don't have any idea na it's Jim Beam. I got dizzy and then... Sean, he's Glen's cousin, the guy you ...punch..." Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko dahil nahihirapan akong magkwento.
Siya naman ay titig na titig lang sa akin na para bang gusto niyang malaman lahat ng dahilan kung bakit nandoon ako.
"Uh, he made me dance with him and I'm too dizzy to push him because of the Jim Beam I drank."
"I'll repeat my question earlier. What did I tell you while I'm away?" He's massaging his temple. Is he really mad at me?
"S-Stay away from other g-guys." I stuttered.
"I'm twingeing mad, Claudette. Everytime. Everytime I'm watching you flirted by that motherfucker. And I'm hurting for a year now." Nanlaki ang mata ko. Year? Does he live here in Manila too? Fuck. I didn't even see him! All I know is he's in CDO or Davao!
"At kanina hindi ko na napigilan. Sumabog na ako. " Nakita ko ang nakakuyom na kamao niya.
"I'm sorry." Yan lang ang nasabi ko sa ma sinabi niya. I promised him that I'm only his. Maybe I didn't push Sean enough.
"Fuck the explanations." Napaluha ako ng hatakin niya ako sa mahigpit niyang yakap. I miss him so much.
"Why are you crying?" Lumabing ang boses niya at pinawi ang mga luha ko.
"I just m-miss you." I said between my sobs.
"Oh, Lady. I am too." Ngumisi siya. Lalo lamang hindi tumigil ang paglabas ng luha ko.
"Hey, stop crying. I'm sorry about earlier. Did I sacre you? Damn. I'm sorry." Ako naman ang napangisi ngayon. Hindi ako natakot sa kanya and I will never be. I guess this is only tears of joy. I just really miss his smile.
"I miss your smile." I traced his lips and I didn't waste any moment. I tiptoed and kiss him. Naramdaman ko ang pag ngiti niya bago tugunin ang halik ko. I thought once I feel his lips into mine will help my tears to stop but it didn't.
Tears of joy again and again because he's really here. Right in front of me and he's kissing me back! Akala ko panaginip lang lahat ng 'to o hallucination pero hindi. Totoong nadito nga siya.
"I won't let you go again. Ngayong hawak na ulit kita hindi na kita bibitawan pa."
Sunod sunod ang tango na ginawa ko. I will not let go too. Hindi ko na ulit siya iiwan.
I didn't regret the times I bid my goodbyes to him. It hurts to walk away from the one you love. It stings to let go of his hand but It doesn't mean you don't love him enough foer not staying by his side. I was just being brave to go away to makes us happen.
"Swear to that. Marry me." Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.
"I'm already married to you, remember?" Ngumiti ako saka pinakita iyong singsing na bigay niya. Nangingiting umiling siya at saka tinaas din ang kaliwang kamay, andun parin 'yong singsing.
"I know. What I mean is a true wedding. I am going to ask your hand in your parents house, that's the first thing I'll do when we got in CDO." Walang kurap na sabi niya.
