Snippets of Color

-diminish-

sorry I haven't been updating, I feel like I'm losing my mind

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wake up
this is not you
there's poison in your mind
poison in your soul
and you're drowning in it
your lungs are filling up
but your mind is being drained
tears like shards of glass fall from your eyes
blood like liquid gold drips from your wrists
staggered breaths leave your mouth
begging yourself to stop
doing anything
everything
to make the pain go away
you've torn yourself apart
ripped at every edge and
shredded what kept you from collapsing
just to feel something beside the void in your mind
you were afraid of the emptiness creeping into your chest
you were terrified of becoming lonely
but there was nothing you could do to stop
the roaring noises around you
and
the deafening silence inside your mind
you're drowning and you can't even remember
what it felt like to breathe
nothing is normal anymore
except for the pain that resides
in every cell inside your body
wake up
you wish you could
but this is not a dream
what you're feeling is real
and you can't do anything to make it end
your mind is filled with perpetual nights
the daylight hasn't touched your soul in ages
you're growing weak and fragile inside
but hardened and solid on the outside
you're too cold to feel the warmth around you
the wind echoes loud inside of your body
screaming that it's too late
it's too late to feel whole again
it's too late to live your life
you're being dragged down
by the beasts that rest within you
you're screaming and yelling for someone to help
you're afraid of handling this alone 
but unable to reach out for someone
you're falling farther and farther
and soon
you won't be able to feel at all
soon

you'll be utterly

and completely

helpless.