No One Can Take Me Away

It Hurts

It hurts.

Why does it hurt I must ask.

I was perfectly fine a minute ago.

But this huge wave crashed into me.

I couldn't stand back up again.

Why so?

This feeling.

My lungs.

I can't breathe.

Where will I go if I failed?

What would I do if you didn't want me anymore?
What would you do if I walked right out the door?
You would stop me wouldn't you.

I dunno.

My feelings are all over the place.

I already miss my friends after 4 to 5 hours.

I hate so many of my teachers.

Well not really hate.

But I don't really care much about them.

Except one so far.

He's nice and funny.

I respect him the most of all my teachers really.

And a growing teenager like me have a lot of hormones.

So in my classes...

I have weird feelings towards people.

Either be a boy or girl.

So I either fall for them.

I like them.

I hate them so much.

I just dislike them.

So many opinions on them.

Thinking on what I'll eat.

I don't care about the people.

Or think what they think of me right at that moment.

See what I mean?

So many thoughts and feelings all over the place.

Which hurts me.

It's like a bouncing bowling ball.

Crushing a small 4 wall room.

Slowly cracking it.

Maybe breaking the windows.

Smashing the door open.

But the ball won't roll out.

It only keeps on going until all four walls fall to the ground and into dust.

It sorta hurts.

What am I supposed to feel anyway?

I think I'm growing numb to all of this.

But just wait until something serious happens and all walls come crumbling down before me.