No One Can Take Me Away

First Ever Chapter To This 'Book' Am I proud?

HAHAHA, this story was supposed to be a romance story about a girl getting actually taken away by her lover, either be a boy or girl.

I don't know I forgot.

But I gave up on that and chose to make it my own personal problems in this.

It might seem stupid but this is what I want to do for myself.

Hmmm, let me think on this one...

Am I proud?

That's the question I always ask myself and see if I really am or not. It's hard to say really.

But this question is directly towards this book and not myself.

Will this book change myself and how I view others? 

Or will it just make it more complicated and more questions will come up more than before?

So many useless questions which no one would ever answer for me.

That's okay.

I've dealt with that before.

I've asked, and got nothing in return.

Not many can answer my question. 

Either it be complicated or super duper easy.

Or you'd just say it's stupid. And I'm stupid, retarded myself.

But I'd look back at you and say,

"You're wrong. I'm not that stupid. It's just I'm uneducated and I'm curious for my own being. And that I have unimportant and useless questions that needed to be answered for my satisfaction. That's all, now go away..."

That's what my brain would say.

But in reality, I'd shove it to the side and accept that I am stupid and retarded.

I wouldn't care anymore. Because I gave up a long time ago.

I don't think I even remembered the last time I wrote a true letter to myself.

Even if I did, it would be pages and pages long about me rambling about the choices I have done and what I could've did to change it.

It would be a love and apology letter to myself and many others.

Just words and words on a random piece of paper.

Hmm, now that I think about it. I think it's best to write the letter here...

Cause why not?

No one is stopping me.

- To myself -

I'd like to say that I have many emotions held inside of me for way too long.

I want to release it all out.

But, I can't... Why not?

Because, when I try to dig up my emotions underground with a rusty shovel.

I'm not able to find it.

But why?

Why can't find my emotions back and finally release it all out?

Is it because I've held it in for so long?

For example -

That one time when I was super angry, but I tried to hold it all in and not break everything in my room?

Or was it when, I had a really bad time that I was so frustrated and I wanted to cry so hard. But, I didn't want to see that I was actually crying or sad.

So in return I acted normal and gave them a smile.

That situation happened many, many times.

I could understand that.

Well anyway, I'm sorry if that caused you, or myself pain.

Because it did... Well sort of.

Moving along from the emotions to the way I think of myself.

Well, I would say I'd be average.

Or somewhat average.

And I want to say to others that, their body is beautiful.

Even if you don't think or see it yourself.

There is always that person who'd love you all the way.

Well anyway...

Uh...

Hmm...

Your love life is nonexistent.

Well, it is true.

And I don't really mind it.

I'd actually like to be single for a little while longer.

Plus, I'm already sucked into the world of anime.

I don't think I'm about to come back out now.

Hehehehe...

And the world of anime is better than the people in real life to be completely honest.

I think this would be enough for the first part of my letter.

Since I don't want to put too much than I already have.