•Matty's pov•
"One minute" Jamie yelled at us
We had a show in one minute
I walked on stage
"Hello everyone! we are the 1975!" I yelled into the microphone
The crowd yelled back
"This song is called, you" I said
They all screamed and cheered
"And you're a liar, at least all of your friends are" I sang
"And so am I, just typically drowned in my car,
It's my party and I'll cry to the end
You must try harder than kissing all of my friends
You" I sang and looked into the crowd
I missed Bella
Every minute
"This the the last song of tonight thank you for coming we are the 1975!" I yelled again
"This song is called me" I said
"got a plane in the middle of the night, don't you mind" I sang thinking back when I met Bella on my way to New York, it was the best thing that ever happened to me
I got up and took a long slur of the whine bottle
"Oh I was thinking about killing myself, don't you mind" I sang lighting a cigarette
"I love you, don't you mind don't you mind" i sang looking at the crowd
I looked down
I was a mess
I immediately walked backstage
"Thank you guys we are the 1975 have a great night cheers!" George said and run back stage towards me I sat down and started sobbing I closed my eyes
"Mate are you alright?" Ross asked "does it looks like he's alright!" George said he hugged and "lad you need to leave it she's not coming back" he whispered
She's not coming back
She's not coming back
She's not coming back
fuck!!!!
•Bella's pov•
I woke up laying on Matty's bed
Shit.
I got dressed quickly and walked towards the living room
I looked around
I will miss this
I walked out of the door and walked towards my car
Today Matty was in pilton.
So tomorrow Matty was going to be back in London
I didn't want to call Van about our break up I didn't want to talk with anyone I didn't want to talk to Brooklyn I was tired of everything.
I drove him in silence
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•Matty's pov•
"Your ready for London tomorrow?" Jamie asked me softly
I shook my head
He nodded "I'm sorry" he said I nodded "will you stay at your apartment?" He asked I nodded
I coudn't talk
I didn't want to talk
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We played a show this evening and we were off to London
I was a nervous wreck
•Bella's pov•
"Brooklyn I don't wanna go out" I groaned "just Bella, let's get pissed" she said I sighed "alright" I agreed
Shit
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It was currently 4am and I was wasted
Brooklyn on the other hand wasn't that pissed
I danced with this guy the whole night
He kissed my cheek and stuff
I didn't know what I was doing so I took him home
"Your so hot" he whispered as we arrived at my apartment
I giggeld he kissed me and I kissed back
What the hell was I doing
He lay me on the bed and he was hovering me
It wasn't the same as with Matty
I moaned when he kissed my neck "Matty" I moaned he stopped and looked at me "Matty?" He asked I shook my head "I'm sorry it's very-" I started "you clearly have a boyfriend" he said standing up I stood up was well "no no! Don't leave" I said nearly falling over my own feet "I'm sorry" he said walking out of the door
I kicked the door
I was a mess really
I had my hair in a messy bun
My clothes falling off my body
I cried more
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After a while of doing that i Walked towards my bed and settled in
I thought about what a idiot I really was and tryed to sleep
*next morning*
"I hate you" I said to Brooklyn on the phone she burst out of laughing "you were all over that guy" she said "I brought him home and moaned Matty's name! He run away!" I said she laughed "Brooklyn it's not funny" I whispered she cleared her throat "your right I'm sorry I gotta go I'll see you soon love you" she said I sighed "love you" I said and hung up
"I hate life" I whispered
•Matty's pov•
I had a interview this morning
I walked in "Matthew Healy from the 1975 here in the studio" the woman said I nodded "thank you for being here " she said again
I didn't really wanted to be there but I needed to
I coudn't let it down could I
So with all my broken pieces I carried myself towards some studio to talk about my broken life..
"It's a pleasure to be here thank you" I said with a nod she smiled "so how are you doing matt?" She asked I just stood there after a second I spoke up "doing fine yeah thank you" I said with a smile "we heard some rumors about your break up with a girl named Bella is that true?" She asked I looked at her frowning
I was not going to lie
"Yeah it's true" I said "how have you been dealing with it" she asked "shit" I said she nodded "I understand that" she said "well moving on" she said
I didn't want to be there
Fuck
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I had a rough day doing many interviews "I'll see you in a bit" I said to George I unlocked the door of my apartment and walked in
I remember that Bella told me she was cleaning a day after I left for tour
It was so clean
I walked towards the kitchen lighting a cigarette as usual grabbing a bottle of whine the something caught my eye
A letter
I looked at it and grabbed it
Dear Matty,
I closed my eyes
It was from Bella
Handwritten
I opened my eyes and read further
I Finnished the letter tears escaping my eyes
I coudn't believe she was really gone
I haven't talked to her in 3 days
I sat on the couch letting something fall
3 pictures and a little note with a lipstick kiss on it I traced my finger over the kiss, I closed my eyes and started sobbing at that point
I had no control over myself anymore
I looked at the photos and smiled for s split second then cried again
"I miss you" I whispered kissing the photo
•George's pov• (fuck yeah)
I walked out of the door
I could hear Matty crying again
As hard as it was I walked past his door and walked into the elevator
I waited then walked out
I was planning on going to Bella's apartment
I got into my car and drove to Bella
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I knocked on her door
After a couple of seconds she opened
"Brooklyn come in I'm sorry I'm busy but-" she said not even looking at me
turning around.
"Bella" I said walking in "George" she said under her breath she stood there for s second then walked up to me hugging me "I missed you" she whispered "I missed you more" I said
We talked for a while about how I was and how tour was going so far
Then Matty came into the view
"Matty's a mess" I whispered she looked at me and nodded "didn't expect anything else" she whispered with a sad smile trying to light up the mood
"He's been drinking a lot he doesn't even want to do interviews anymore after today, he's a real mess, he misses you even more and this may be shocking for you but he is doing cocaine again" I whispered her head shoot up and she looked at me "c-cocaine?" She asked me scared I nodded she cleared her throat "I uh" she struggeld to talk
I nodded "you need to talk with him" I said she shook her head "he is the reason I said goodbye I can't say hello and show up everytime he is doing bad again you know" she whispered
I sighed and hugged her
I felt sorry for them
They loved eachother so much they just had to leave eachother
I didn't even believe in love anymore since the breakup
"I should go we have a show tonight" I said standing up she looked at me
I was the only memory about Matty for her she sighed a little and stood up as well "yeah I uh I'm meeting up with someone together" she said
I could tell she didn't want to be alone
I hugged her again and walked towards the front door she followed
"I'm sorry i really am" I whispered opening the door she stood in the doorway and looked at me "it's not your fault" she whispered "I'll speak to you soon I love you" he said kissing my forehead "if you change your mind you know your always welcome" I said with a weak smile she nodded "thank you George I call you soon bye" she hugging me "goodbye love" I whispered walking away
She isn't coming back anymore
Even that hurt me...
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Hey guys !
How are y'all
I hope you are feeling fine..
Bye XX
