It was 2am and I looked van I was tired as hell.
"I'll sleep on the couch" I said "no are you crazy or something" he laughed "I'm sleeping on the couch" he said tilling me off the couch and walked into his bedroom "no put me down!" I laughed yelling he plopped me down on his bed and grabbed warm blankets and pillows from his bed "goodnight" he said smiling standing in the door way "I still don't like-" I started but he cut me off "you can go to the live lounge with me tomorrow, I'll be playing my new song" he said I looked at him he walked towards and sat next of me on his bed "I can't do that, I'll wake you up tomorrow saying that I'm leaving and i grab my stuff and leave to London" I said he nodded "I get why you do this ofcourse" he said "thank you for understanding van" I said he held his arms open for a hug I hugged him "your so small" he said with a laugh "don't start about it" I laughed he stood up "van you can always lay here next to me, not in that way but I don't want you to get up in a few hours and break your back you know" I said he smiled "your right love" he said and he layed next to me and we didn't say a word "how long have you guys been together" he asked "since I was 17 we were in love, but then this kind of stuff happened and we always left eachother but somehow ended up with eachother again" I said "wow" he whispered "6 years" he said I looked at him "what?" I asked "you guys have been in love for 6 years" he said looking at me I nodded "wow" I spoke "that's a lot you know" he said I sighed
After a while it was silent "goodnight love" he whispered "goodnight Van" I whispered
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the next morning I woke up.
I felt numb.
I stood up and woke Van up.
"Hey Van can I take a quick shower" I said not wanted to bother him really.
He moaned "yea love I'll see you in a bit" he said with a smile I smiled back "thank you" I said and walked into the bathroom.
I showered quick got dressed and walked into the bedroom again.
"Goodmorning love" Van said "goodmorning"I said with a smile Van stood up and dressed himself nicely.
"I'm sad I can't see you for a month" he said with a pout I nodded "we'll catch up I promise" I said sadly we walked to the front door and I stood in the doorway with all my stuff "I'll see you soon love, you'll be fine you have my phone number call me when something happens" he said I nodded "oh come here" he whispered and hugged me, I hugged back "I'll see you soon Van I promise!" I smiled as I walked to the end of the hall "I promise too!" He said "bye!" I said "bye love" he said I turned around and heard a door close.
I took a deep breath
•Matty's pov•
I woke up with the biggest headache ever
I didn't saw Bella I waited for an hour for her, I called her a 100 times and texted her.
I heard a knock I opened the door
"Bella" I said she didn't talk walked straight to the bedroom and grabbed her stuff looking for her money "what are you doing Bella?" I asked, she still didn't answer "look at those whine spots on the wall" she said "I saw but what happened?" I asked "you nearly trowed a fucking whine bottle at my head and said that I needed to go" she said I frowned what the fuck have I done
"So I'm going as you told" she said the only thing I could remember is being upset because that Van guy.
"Bella" I sighed "how fucking many times did I left you! Don't you get it matty! I always came back hoping you would do things differently!" She yelled "I had an fucking overdose! How can you expect me to be normal after a couple of weeks!" I yelled "well why did you start with alcohol again then!" She yelled back "I-I don't really know" I whisperd "it's hard to break old habits" ""Maybe it was dumb to believe this was ever gonna work." She said
"No." I said firmly, grabbing me tightly, "Don't say that." I said again
"But it's true. We're young and in love and we believe in us because we have nothing else to believe in. We want us to be together so badly, we never thought about if it was the right thing. Yes we are in love," she said,her eyes fixated on mine, "but we weren't meant to be. Forever isn't a word in our vocabulary."
She took a shaky breath and continued, "Our love story doesn't have a happy ending, it just has an ending.""she whisperd
I can't do this anymore," She whispered. I can feel my heart beating faster and faster, "I can't pretend that we're okay. We're not okay, we haven't been for a long time." I didn't say anything because i knew this was coming, we both did, "I'm letting you go, I think we need to let each other go, we're just weighing each other down. I loved you so much" she said
grabbing her stuff and walked to the front door
"So it's just over?" I asked.
"Yeah, it is." She said so bluntly.
Her words slipped as if she wasn't even thinking about what we built. Like what we built over time was just nothing. Just, normal human beings going on about their day.
"I can't believe I'm telling you this right now, but I fell in love with you. I fell in love with every piece you showed to the world and everything I have ever felt for you has only grown. I don't think words can even describe the way you made me feel." She said, tears forming in her eyes.
"Now you just, you just i don't even know you anymore" she said
The tears that were forming were now spilling out of her swollen green eyes.
"But you, you were my person." She said, tears now what you would call a tsunami.
"But you ruined it" she said so bluntly, and that's when i saw everything my heart has ever loved, my hole heart being ripped out of my chest and thrown away just like that.
"Text me when your in London again, I have some stuff at your apartment" she said opening the door and walked out.
It was over
Real this time
"I know I messed up, I'll away be a messed up and you can't save me because you coudn't save yourself from me, I'll love you forever" I said "i love you too Matthew" she said and closed the door.
She was gone.
What do I do now?
I fell into the ground.
•Bella's pov•
I walked into the elevator and coudn't handle it anymore I cried, I fell into the floor and screamed
I was gone, for good.
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I was in London.
It was currently 8pm now and I walked into my home.
It was weird coming home after so long
I texted Van that I got home save.
Matty aswell.
I could be still mad at him.
I didn't really know how I could start my live again.
I'm lost within my own head.
