•Bella's pov•
It was the day of leaving
Matty is leaving for tour today
In a couple of minutes
"Ready?" Matty sighed I nodded
We walked out of the door and saw George Ross and Adam.
"Hey guys" matty said "you ready for tour mate!" Adam said
I wasn't even in the mood to dress nice
I had put my hair in a messy bun
Some black jeans and a shirt from matty and my dr martens and a coat ofcourse
I looked at the ground not listening to Matty's conversation with Adam
"Your okay?" George whispered
I shook my head and hugged Matty's side
He brushed trough my hair with his hand a bit talking to Ross
"Let's go" matty said walking towards the car "where is Jamie?" George asked "at the airport" Ross said matty nodded and we stepped in "wait who is going to drive the car back?" Adam asked I put my hand in the air "oh shit I forgot you didn't come with us" Adam whispered
I nodded "can we just, drive?" Matty whispered
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We arrived at the airport "how long do we have?" Adam asked as we sat down "20 minutes" Ross said I looked at matty and sighed "come with me please?" Matty whispered in my ear
•Matty's pov•
I never thought it would hurt this bad
Yeah ofcourse it would hurt me saying goodbye to her for a long time but fuck
"Bella?" I said she looked at me "yeah" she said "come with me for a bit?" I said she stood up and walked towards a little restaurant with me we sat down
"Finally some time alone" she whispered I nodded "Bella I'll miss you more then I thought" I said straight forward she sighed and let a tear slip over her cheek "me too matty" she whispered I sighed
I didn't want to see her face trough a screen I wanted to kiss her when I want
"I love you" I said "I love you more" she smiled trough the tears
"Promise me you'll see me on tour?" I said she nodded "I promise" she said kissing me I kissed back
"Matty it's time to walk to the gates" Adam said I sighed Bella looked at me
I saw her sad expression she looked at me "let's go" she whispered I nodded as we stood up took a deep breath and walked towards the gates
"It was nice seeing you, I'll see you soon Bella" Adam said as he hugged me "yeah yeah I'll miss you guys" I said wiping a tear away "we'll miss you little one" Ross whispered hugging me "I'll miss you too big one" I laughed trough the tears "aah Bella my little sister we'll miss you more then you think babe" George said in a sad tone while hugging me "I'll miss you more" I whispered
Then I walked towards matty
I'll miss him till death
"Man I'll miss you so much love" he said kissing me I kissed him back
I'll miss kissing those soft lips
"Flight 3 to L A is calling" George said
Matty hugged me and kissed me again
I kissed him back he broke away and walked away
My heart hurts
"I love you" I whispered sobbing
"I love you more" he said I could see the tears in his eyes the boys waved and looked at me then matty run towards
Me again
"Oh I'll miss those lips" he whispered against my skin kissing me
I kissed him back
"I love you I love you but you really need to go" I said "I'll be back before you know it okay?" He said wiping some tears I nodded "goodbye" matty I whispered he looked at me "mate come on!" Ross yelled in the back "go" I whispered as I kissed matty
"Bye love" he said and walked away
I'll really miss him.
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I woke up
I felt weird
I looked at my phone
New message
I opened the message and saw Matty's name pop up i sighed
Hello love, I just landed in LA i miss you xx
I smiled and texted back
I miss you more xxx
I walked into the bathroom and started my day
Van was home and I missed him as a friend too
I called Brooklyn
"Hello?" She said "hey" I said "oh hey Bella what ya doing" she said with a laugh "I just woke up, hey do you mind coming over today?" I asked "your apartment?" She asked "yeah mine I'm currently at Matty's but I'll come home" I said "alright at what time are you home?" She asked "well I'm going to eat something get ready, clean since it's a mess here and yeah.. At 4?" I asked "yeah sounds good I'll be there bye!" She said "see you later" I said and hung up
I walked into the bedroom and saw some of Matty's left over clothes I looked at it and grabbed it
"Oh god" I said smelling his shirt I missed him already
I grabbed all of the mess on the floor and opened the window putting on some music
"You know when I'm gone I struggle at night" I sang Cleaning everything
"Dreams of you fucking me all the time
And I know you're tied up
And I know your phone's fucked
I'm craving your calls like a soldier's wife" I heard behind me I turned around "Van!" I yelled running up to him "you know I had a pretty good view but hi" he chuckled "how-what-why?" I stuttered "I coudn't leave you behind like this could I?" He joked I smiled "thank you!" I laughed "singing my songs I see" he smirked I smiled "well they're pretty good so" I said with a laugh "thank you" he said with a nod
"Oh I missed you" I chuckled hugging him "I missed you too" he said "Matty's gone?" He asked I nodded "yeah yesterday evening" I said looking down "don't worry" he said I nodded
"For how long are you staying?" I asked him "well 7 days, a week if that's okay with you" he said with a smile "yeah yeah ofcourse" I said he nodded "thank you again,for coming" I said he smiled "no problem love" he whispered
Just then my phone got off
"Hello?" I said "hello darling" matty said "I miss you" he said I looked at Van "I miss you more" I whispered "how are you?" Matty asked I put it on speaker and walked with Van towards the living room and sat down "I'm doing...okay I guess" I sighed "you?" I asked "the same, always the same as you" he chuckled Van smiled at me
"So what are you doing love?" He said "well I'm cleaning" I said looking at Van "cleaning?" Matty chuckled "yeah cleaning it was a mess here" I said "I know I know" he said "Brooklyn is coming over later, well i mean I'm going home" I whispered there was a bit of silence
"Oh your going home" he said in a sad tone "yeah well it's your apartment and I have my own" I laughed akwardly he sighed "I know, I just, I'm not used at you going home that's all" matty said "I love you" I spoke softly "I love you more" he whispered "I'll go now, I'm very busy but I always make time for you" he said softly "I want to kiss you" I whispered "me too" he whispered "alright I'll speak to you as soon as possible love you" he said "I love you" I said and hung up "wow" Van said I laughed "I'm you know, still here" he chuckled I laughed "how can I forget you" I said "why is matty acting weird around me since day one?" Van asked "well you were my boyfriend weren't you" I chuckled "but now like you guys are together and he is still acting weird" he said I nodded "he said your still in love with me and yeah" I said not wanting to say what matty really said
Van nodded "well there is no competition is there" Van whispered I looked down "do you want to go out for dinner?" I asked him "that would be lovely" he smiled
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•Matty's pov•
"I can't believe I forgot your name" I sang "alright that's enough for today" Jamie said "I didn't finish the song?" I said he nodded "matty you are working too hard today" he sighed "I just want-" I started "you just want to fuck that hot girlfriend of yours" he finished "don't talk about it like that?" I said frowning "she's not a sexual object" I snapped and walked out of the studio
I walked to our hotel by myself
"Oh yeah I love your drum thing too" a girl said I opened the hotel room and saw the boys with girls on their lap "what the fuck is happening" I said looking infront of me "there is he!" Adam yelled
He is basically high
So was everyone else
"Yeah there is he!" Ross yelled
A girl came walking towards me "hey" she said "oh hello love" I said clearly not interested in her company "I love your hair" she giggeld
"Well thanks..George I'm going to bed" I said "stay" the girl said "well normally I would loved to but love I have a girlfriend who I love more then anything I can't really do anything, goodnight" I said she frowned "can I take a photo then?" She asked "well yeah that's fine" I said she gave me her phone "oh I'll make it" another girl said the blonde thanked her and put an arm around my waist and kissed my cheek "1 2 3"the girl said she made the picture and handed the phone back
"Thank you" the said girl I nodded and walked out of the door walking to my own I sighed and lay on my bed
I missed Bella a lot
I missed her lips
Her body
Her voice
Everything about her
I called her
"This is the voicemail" i hung up and sighed
Where could she be ?
•Bella's pov•
"Oh my god" I laughed "well he just- did you hear a phone go off?" Van asked I shook my head he nodded "I enjoyed tonight" I whispered "me too just like the old times" he smiled a sad smile
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I'm absolutely drunk
"I like Matty's noodles" I giggeld "alright come on" Van said putting me in my bed "shit shit shit!" I yelled "what?" Van asked "I forgot about Brooklyn" I said "brooklyn?" Van asked "my friend" I whispered
Van nodded
"I miss matty" I whispered Van sighed and sat next to me
"Well I miss you" he whispered
"I loved you Van I really did, I was scared falling for you because I thought I would forget about matty, and I didn't want to, I didn't realize that at that moment but I still loved matty and when I finally let you in, all I did was thinking about matty how much I missed him, and I don't know this for sure but I was more deeply in love with you, but what would I do when I was in love with that guy since I was 17" I said Van looked at me "so you was just scared that you would miss matty" he whispered I nodded "that's my dear, is love" i whispered
"You know I'm still in love with you and I know you are probably drunk right now and don't remember this in the morning but i want to feel the same in the morning, I want you" he said
I looked at him
Lucky for me it was dark because otherwise he would see my tears
"I miss you too" I whispered
I didn't know what I was saying
I was drunk ofcourse
"You don't love me in the same way Bella" he whispered "I don't know" I slurred I looked at his eyes
"Kiss me" I whispered "no I can't do that you are drunk and have a boyfriend" he said "I want to" I whispered
He sighed
"I love you" he whispered
And he kissed me
I was so stupid, I kissed him back
But I only kissed his lips because I missed Matty's on mine
Shit matty
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