Phan Oneshots

Vidcon

Word count:1183

T/W: There is none? Well kinda angst i guess? and mabey fluff? idk.

Summary: Basically, Dan and Phil keep fighting, and they think it's best to "have a break" meaning to break up. Then Phil thinks that the better decision is to move out, because being around Dan after just breaking up is getting to be a little too much for him.
They then meet up again inevitably after 4 months of no contact in any way, while at Vidcon. 

 Me and Dan, both made the decision that we needed a break. I don't think he really wanted to be around me any more. He moved out, and he went to move in with Chris. I have been feeling, really alone lately. Not having Dan around really has gotten to me a bit. Most of the things in his room are now gone, and so is he. 

That was 4 months ago. There was another Vidcon coming up, and we were expected to be in the same pannel. We told out fans that we weren't going to be living together any more, due to our "break" from each other, not saying that we were dating, and that is what we wanted the break from.

I don't think I can face him. If I see him, I know that I'll break down. I have seen him a few times, and every time we shared eye contact it lasted a millisecond. We got here a day ago, and we have a pannel today. I was currently sat on the edge of my room bed, thinking of a way to get around being near Dan. That didn't last long. 

I heard a soft knocking on my room door, and my head snapped up to look towards it. "Phil? It's me." I sighed, and walked over to the door opening it. "Hi Cat." I smiled forcefully. "Hey Phil, how are you?" She asked, pulling me into a hug. 

"I could be better, how are you?" I asked, pulling out of the quite awkward and tense hug. I haven't hugged anyone for weeks. I'd rather be hugging Dan right now, no offence to Cat of course. I just know that it will always be like this between me and Dan. Distant. 

"I'm great thanks." She beamed at me. "So, Phil... I heard about you and Dan." Just the conversation I wanted to avoid right now. "Yeah... it's been a while since i've seen him... I'm actually- umm. I'm- scared." I said, tearing up already. "Aww, Phil." She gently pulled me into a hug again, and I wrapped my arms around her, crying onto her shoulder. "Phil, I'm so sorry." She muttered. I pulled out of the hug again, and shook my head. "Don't be, it's fine..." I replied, sniffling and wiping my eyes to get rid of the tears. 

"It was a joint decision, so it's not like one of us was pushing away the other... we just thought that- we thought it was the right thing to do. We were arguing a lot lately." Another few tears fell, before I wiped my eyes again. 

"I don't know what to say..." She said. I started to hear muffled chatter. "No, I can't do it Louise... I'll... I just know i'll start crying, or i'll say something wrong. It's been 4 months. We shouldn't do this. Let's go back." Dan.

"No, you are going to sort this out with Phil. You're a mess Daniel. This obviously isn't fix the problems. It made them worse. You miss him, and it's starting to ruin you." I could tell, even from here... Dan was going to be stubborn. I want him to be stubborn so we don't have to face each other. 

"I'm not facing him Louise. This was a bad idea... I'm going back to my room." I heard the footsteps retreat. "Daniel James Howell, do not dare lock yourself in that damn room!" Nothing. 

I heard Louise sigh, and she started to get closer. I looked at her as the door was open, and she looked up. "Oh, oh..." She realised that I heard every word. "I'm so sorry Philly." She walked over and she then pulled me into a hug. "It's okay Louise. Thank's for trying, but I don't really want to see him either. It's been 4 months, and not seeing him has been hell. Actually seeing him will be torture." I sighed, hugging Louise tight, and trying to find the will not to cry. 

"I understand Phil, but you're going to face him sooner or later, and you can't ignore each other during the pannel, which is in 5 hours may I add." I sighed, everything Louise was saying is right. We are going to face each other soon. 

"Okay... I'll go to his room by myself. I think that would be the best way to sort things out." I said, pulling out of the hug. Louise smiled and patted my shoulder. "Go for it Phil." Cat spoke up, smiling at me. "He's in the room next to mine. You know where my room is right?" I nodded, she told me when we got here, but I never wanted to know where Dan's room was, and vice versa most probably. 

I sighed, and left my room, knowing that Louise and Cat will wait for me to go back and tell them the news. I slowly walked up to the door, starting to have second thoughts, then before I could stop myself... I knocked on the door. 

"Louise, I already told you... I am not going to his room. I can't do it."I felt my heart shatter, and I looked down at my feet. "I can't face him after 4 months of nothing. I'll cry in front of him... or i'll end up hugging him and he'll feel uncomfortable. I don't want to end up doing that to him." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"I'm not Louise, Dan. Open the door? Please?" I pleaded, waiting to see what would happen. I heard shuffling, and walking, and then I looked up to meet my eyes with a pair of brown ones. "Hi Phil... What's- what's wrong... why are you- why are you here?"He asked, and didn't keep eye contact, it was obvious he had been crying. I felt my eyes tear up and I stepped forward, closing the door behind me, before wrapping my arms around him. 

I felt him hug me back, and I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck. "I'm so sorry Phil. I'm sorry that this all happened. We both messed up. I didn't want to leave you... I wanted what was best for you... I wanted you to be happy. I thought you were going to be happ-" I pulled out of the hug, and slowly wrapped my arms around his neck, to cut him off with a kiss.

I felt him wind his arms around my waist as he kissed back. I missed this so much. I missed Dan. He was right. It was stupid. Though I wasn't happy. At all. It made me worse, and also made me realise that I need Dan more than I thought. Even though we fight sometimes,  leaving each other would never fix a problem between us. It would create a larger one.

We soon pulled out of the kiss, and our foreheads were pressed together. "I love you so much." Dan broke the silence. "I love you more." "I doubt that." Dan smirked, before pulling me into a hug again.