4: The Playboy's Victim

Chapter six: Baby tell me why.. what I do, why I'm wrong

6

We were both young when I first saw you. You have no idea how beautiful you are.. standing in a nice dress starring at the sunset.. pink lips and rosy cheecks. Among the crowd you were the only one who caught my attention the most. You're with your mom that time and I was with my dad.

I asked who are you and he told me.. Your mom was my mom's friend. That they invited you in my bro's birthday. I can't take my eyes off of you so he tease me that I liked you..

I didn't know what's like or crush way back then. That what I felt for you was love at first sight. I didn't believe in such thing until I felt it my self.

Nakita kitang binati mo ng happy birthday noon ang kapatid ko at naka ngiti ka. Lumapit ako sayo non, that's the first time I felt my world stop just because of you smilling at me. You said Hi and ask for my name.

"Nice to meet you Lawrence." you called me by second instead of my first name. I felt special.. no one calls me by that ikaw lang.

I didn't knew at such a young age I'll love someone so hard. First love sabi nila..

Nag umpisa ang party nang hindi ko inaalis ang tingin sa 'yo. I put too much atention with you that I was so blind to see the other things. I didn't knew that was love that I felt for you.. I thought I was only attracted by your lovely face. nothing more, nothing else. Masayang-masaya ka non, you were so happy enjoying the crowd. maraming palaro na pang bata at kahit hindi mo iyon alam sumasali kapa rin.

You grew up in states I heard your mom told my mother. Kaya pala maputi ka dahil laki ka sa america..

The next day I went to your house. I visited you and ask you out. Your mom said yes kaya pinayagan niya tayong umalis ng tayo lang.

Nakilala natin ang isa't-isa I was Fifteen and you were thirteen that time. Pareho tayong highschool student kaya binabawalan nila tayong mag ka-relasyon. But I don't want nothing more for you that time.. Naintindihan kong bata pa tayo non pero umamin na akong gusto kita. Were friends and yet sinabi moring may gusto ka para sa kin.

Niligawan kita kahit alam kong hindi mag tatagal at babalik karin sa states. You were my first in everything, first love, first crush at sana..

First girlfriend rin.

Ipinakilala kita sa family ko pati na sa nag iisa kong naka babatang kapatid.. Si Sean. Pinaalam kong nililigawan kita at katulad ng reaksyon ng family mo ganun rin kay mom and dad. Naka ngiti kalang non at ang saya saya nating dalawa.

We were eating dinner when you asked me about my lil bro. Halos mag ka edad kayo di tulad ko, tahimik lang ang kapatid ko.

Mas nakilala kita. alam ko na mga gusto mo, ayaw mo. Lagi tayong lumalabas, nanunuod ng sine, nag da-date. A typical teenage puppy love sabi nga nila. Seryoso ako sa 'yo non at mas lalo kitang nagustuhan habang tumatagal. Maraming naiinggit sa 'yo dahil ikaw ang nililigawan ko, aware akong maraming may gusto sa 'kin pero ikaw lang talaga ang gusto ko.

That my attention is only for one girl. At ikaw yon Lily.

Nag kahiwalay tayo dahil umuwi kana sa amerika, I told my mom. Sinabi kong gusto kong duon mag-aral para makasama kita. And we did. Hindi naman kami nahirapang tumira jaan dahil duon ang trabaho ni Dad.

Masaya ako dahil hindi nag tagal at nakasama nanaman kita. I should be senior already pero iba ang kalakaran ng pag-aaral sa states kaya bumalik ako sa junior. ahead parin ako sa 'yo ng isang taon. I was surprised to know na iisang school lang tayo nag-aaral kaya nag pa-impress ako. Nag aral ako ng mabuti para hindi mapahiya sayo.

Were still dating until my senior. Hindi ako tumitingin o humahanap ng iba dahil ikaw lang ang gusto ko. Wala akong paki sa mga umaamin sa 'kin araw-araw na gusto nila ko. Lagi kong sinasabi na sayo lang ako. Lalo yong dumami ng sumali ako sa basketball team.

Medjo nawalan ako ng oras sa 'yo. dun ko lang rin nalaman na classmate mo pala kapatid ko. Mabuti yon sabi ko, may nag babantay sayo at may mag susumbong sakin kung sakaling maisipan mong mag loko.

Then came the prom I asked you out, I invited you to come with me and you said yes. Katulad date sobrang ganda mo parin. Masaya ako dahil ikaw ang partner ko sa araw na yon.

Muli nanaman tayong pinag hiwalay dahil naiwan kang mag-isa habang ako nag aapply ng college sa harvard.

Lagi mong sinasabi.. you were bullied by the girls who used to like me, buti nalang andun kapatid ko para pag tanggol ka.

Nag patuloy ang relasyon natin non kahit na sa mag kaibang school pa tayo nag-aaral. Nangako ka na susunod ka sakin pag katapos mo sa highschool. You want to be a veterinarian. You want to give medical care  and treatment to animals or you simply want to be an animal doctor.

I cut my last subject because I wanted to surprise you. It's our first anniversary together. Bumili ako ng bulak-lak na gusto mo, chocolates at kung ano-ano. Bumalik ako sa school natin. Nakangiti akong lumalakad papasok. Hindi ko maialis ang ngiti sa pisngi ko dahil bumalik ang masayang alala natin sa lugar na iyon.

Pinag titinginan ako. hinanap kita Sa room niyo dahil wala ka. lumabas ka raw kasama ang kapatid ko kaya dumeretcho ako sa canteen. Pinag tanong-tanong kita at may nakapag sabi saking nakita karaw sa likod ng building.. Nag taka ako dahil bakit ka nila makikita roon? Ano naman gagawin mo doon until I saw you.

Both of you.

Nakatalikod ka sa 'kin habang kausap mo siya. Nabura ang ngiti saking labi dahil sa mga sumunod mong binanggit. You used me.. You didn't like me, that you liked my brother instead of me. Sa pangalawang pag kakataon muling tumigil ang mundo ko at dahil nanaman yon sayo. My world fell a part and I was left broken. Napalingon  kayong dalawa dahil nahulog ko ang aking dala. Namanhid ako at walang makita kundi ikaw at siya.

You stoped me but you were too late. my fist lands to my lil brother's face. hindi niyo ako mapigil dahil mas malakas at mas malaki ako sainyo. Then the teachers and guards stop us before I can break his bone.

I was so mad. At you, at my self and my brother.

I want to ask you Baby tell me why.. what I do, why I'm wrong.. hindi ko matanggap na sarili kong kapatid ang aagaw sa babaeng gusto ko.

Umalis ako at hindi kana muling kinausap pa. That's when I realize.. that It's wasn't puppy love anymore..

You were my first again, my first heart break.