4: The Playboy's Victim

Chapter twenty seven: I just want to forget.. or get lost to remember only him.

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He knew very well not to let go of my hands all the way here. Hindi ko alam panong siya ang aking naging lakas ng mga oras na iyon. Iniintay niya akong mag salita, mag kwento pero hanggang ngayon tanging oo, siguro at hindi pa lamang ang lumalabas sa bibig ko, I knew so much that he's been dying for me to tell him the truth but I was too weak to admitt it to Him. Too afriad to be exact. Hindi ko alam pano siya papasalamatan sa mga ginagawa niya para sa kin, yung walang sawang pag intindi niya sa kin.

Hindi ko alam saan ako mag uumpisa.

He was always there at my back to push me forward, to pull me back, there he was always for me.

"Hindi mo naman kailangang gawin to Kz." mahina niyang sabi sa kin.

"Pero alam mong ito ang dapat." I said back meaning it.

Hinawakan nito ang kanyang pisngi at pinaharap rito. "I know you know how much I hate your vocalist,"

"But you still buy our latest album."

He let out a groan that I found childlish but cute.. Cute huh?

"Binili ko yun dahil sayo hindi sa kumag na yon! At alam mong hindi yun ang punto ko,"

Nag iwas na siya ng tingin dahil hindi na siya makatagal sa mga titig nito.

"You don't have to leave the band baby, there's another way just don't quit."

"There's no other way but to quit Chris, it's not worth it anymore. Nakapag desisyon nako."

Humigpit ang hawak nito sa kanyang kamay. "Y-your fans.. hindi ba sila sapat para mag bago isip mo?"

"Alam mong mahal ko sila. Aalis lang ako sa banda Chris hindi mamatay."

"Don't fucking joke like that! it's not funny."

Agad siyang humingi ng tawad dahil duon nang makita ang reaksyon nito. She's acting bitch for no reason.

"Ayoko lang na ganito ka, alam kong kahit andito ako sa tabi mo iniisip mo paring mag-isa ka."

Hindi siya sumagot sa sinabi nito. she hate him for being like that.. parang sa tuwing may mangyayari sa kanila ay mas lalo pa siya nitong nakikilala.

They arrive there half an hour ago pero hanggang ngayon ay wala parin siyang lakas ng loob pumasok sa loob ng studio.

"This been your life, your family , your everything sweetness."

Kelan ba siya naging mali? parang lahat nalang ng tukol sa kanya ay alam na nito.

"Music is part of you Kz, diba yun yung hilig mo? This is a big deal for you. Pangarap mo to pero binabasura mona ngayon."

It is indeed what I want. "I just don't want to be part of the band anymore."

More of you don't want to see them anymore.

"If that's what you want," he sound so dissapppinted of me. I know he knows what I meant when I said those words. I want to take it back but it was all too late.

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"So this explain why.." sinabi niya sakin habang ako nakatingin lamang ang mata sa kanila.

They look so happy in a way that she's not with me. tinuturan ng kanilang vocalistang si Ryan ang kanyang ex na si Abigail na mag gitara. I'm more than great than him.. but why.

Pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko maialis ang mga mata ko sa kanila.. hanggang sa mag katinginan ang mata naming dalawa dahilan para tumigil sila. Never in my wild mind that I think I'll be in this situation  wherein I was there while Chris holding my hand, and my ex standing there looking at me ..our hands actually while our vocalist is holding her hand.