Aasmanon Pe Likhaa ... #Wattys2016

3. Memories

I got discharged today from Hospital as its been a week since I needed rest properly and because I was no longer getting married, I came home with Ammi and Huda by my side, holding me so I may not fall from weakness. The do tor said it was a nervous breakdown after looking at the reports.

My garden was no longer decorated. My house, my room was as normal as it used to be before all the wedding preparations.

Aisa lag raha tha koi khuaab tha wo sab. Main neendh se jaagi aur sab khatam hogaya, saari tayariyan, sab kuch.

Huda, my bestfriend, meri Jaan, humesha se mere saath rahi, mera saath diya usne har mushkil, har khushi, har gham mein. Mere pas rahi aaj wo bhi, mujhe dekh k sochti hogi kya hai aakhir mere naseeb mein.

"Chalo. Hafay, kuch khaa lo, please. Tumne medicines leni hain yaar." Huda requested with a pout on her lips.

"Nahi kaha karo mujhe Hafay, nahi rahi ab main Hafay. Hafsa bulao," I said as Hafay, my nickname, reminds me of him.

"Ummm, sorry. Acha, chalo na. Utho please. Khana khaao uth k chalo shabash. Aunty Uncle bhi intezar kar rhay hain aur main ne tumhen khana khilaye baghair ghar nahi jana."  She said firmly.

After dinner I came back to my room gulping my medicines down with water, feeling tired of everything. I decided to take a round and every memory came across my mind as I entered garden. It was raining heavily and I was sitting on grass getting drenched in rain.

Kahan se kahan aagai main. Kabhi socha bhi nahi tha keh aise shadi se aik din pehle, dulhanon waali mehndi lagwa kar bhi main dulhan nahi ban paaongi uski. Kyun naseeb mein woh nahi hota jo ap chahte hain? Main to sirf pyaar chahti thi aur to kuch nahi chaha main ne, phir kyun hua mere saath aisaa?

I again walked to my room and got my cellphone from my bag.

I missed his face, I miss him. Usne mujhe itna dard dia lekin phir mein us se pyaar krti hoon. Abhi bhi beintehaa pyaar krti hu, itne dard ke baad. Mein kabhi nahi royi itna, kisi ke liye nahi jitna mein uske liye royi aur jab woh hospital mein rishta tordne aaye toh mera shakal dekhna bhi gawaara na kia? Kyun kia Ayaan aap ne mere sath aisa?

I started going through our memories, our pictures. I played some of rocking songs randomly to divert my mind but then one song started playing which I used to listen the most when I missed him.

And now this song makes my heart bleed.

Every memory played in my eyes and my vision started to blur.

Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Raaste har dafa sirf tera pata Mujhse poochhe bhala kyun hai
Ek pal pyaar ka zindagi se bada Aisa mere Khuda kyun hai ...

Soona soona mann ka hai konaa
Soona soona tere bin hona hai har kahin par
Tu hai tu nahin hai par
Tu hai o bekhabar
Tu hai har mod par ...

Itna toh bata mausamon ki tarah
Tu badalta gaya kyun hai ...

  Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Raaste har dafa sirf tera pata
Mujhse poochhe bhala kyun hai ...

Teri meri baaki hai kahaani
Teri meri aadhi hai kahaani
Aa gayi wo mod par
Tu gaya jo chhod kar
Mere dil ko tod kar kya mil gaya ...

  Paas ho toh bura door ho toh bura
Aisa mere Khuda kyun hai ....
Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Tu hi tu har jagah aaj kal kyun hai
Raaste har dafa sirf tera pata
Mujhse poochhe bhala kyun hai