Not Again

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Its been a few days now and Austin and I are texting as usual... but this time he's taking a bit longer to respond and honestly, I hate it. I send a message and I don't get one back for two hours. He's usually a fast at responding but I'm guessing he's kind of busy at the moment so I stopped replying for a bit. I couldn't help but began to think about what had happened that day when we went to the movies. I love him... just everything about him. His smile, his eyes, his hair, the way he always looks on the bright side of things. After everything he's been through with his parent's divorce and his father being abusive plus an alcoholic, he's always smiling. I know it hurts him and I know he's still going through a lot lately.. even when he shows people he's happy.

"BECKY! GET YOUR ASS UP FOR SCHOOL YOU'RE GOING TO BE FUCKING LATE!" I hear my mom yell from the living room. Doesn't she know its a holiday? Wait... she shouldn't know that.. I'm just going to say that I woke up late and then walk out the door.

"Sorry! I woke up late, I'm leaving right now!" I said as I walked into the living room throwing my sweater on.

"I better not get a fucking call that you either ditched or went late to any other classes, or your dad will get on your ass about it!" She yells once again before I left. She didn't even notice that I left my backpack, haha what an idiot. I chuckled to myself and began to walk in front of the school, my phone vibrated after a while. I didn't feel like answering Austin at the moment so I just left it alone for a bit. I looked around and saw the cars pass by, I looked at my house and saw my mom walking out. My eyes widened, I quickly got off of the steps and ran down the side walk. I pulled out my earphones and put both of them in my ears, I took out my phone and began to play my daily playlist. I went back to my messages and looked for the new message.

'Sorry about that I got busy. -Austin'

'Hello? -Austin'

'Becky?! -Austin'

'Sorry Austin, had to run. -Becky'

'From who? -Austin'

'My mom, she thinks there's school today and I kept making her think that just so I can get out of doing chores - Becky'

'Damn. That lazy huh? -Austin'

'No! You just think that chores from her is only three things to do and you're done. When in reality she makes up stupid things to clean just to keep me busy. -Becky'

'Ohh... so where are you now? -Austin'

'Walking around, I was hanging around in front of the school but she was walking out of the house so I ran down the sidewalk. I don't really know where I'm walking to but oh well -Becky'

'Woow -Austin'

'Yeah -Becky'

After a while I recieved an oovoo voice message from Kassie,

"Hey Becks... just wanted to let you know to not trust Austin anymore. I completely forgot to tell you that he told me a few days ago that he's a player.. he only plays girls who he knows that are hopelessly in love with him. Well... just wanted to tell you.. bye." She said in the message. Wow.

So now she's trying to protect me? Hm, I thought she didn't take my advice because I thought she'd think of me as the jealous ex-girlfriend that didn't want anyone with him but me. No, I'm not like that and I'm glad she doesn't see me that way. I really just want what's best for her, I honestly could care less who Austin gets with... even if I do still have feelings for him but he'll never understand.

****Fast forward to a few weeks later****

Kassie and I are no longer considered friends, just acquaintances. Austin got in the way... I'm not communicating with him at all. Man, he makes it look so easy to avoid me at school. It's like he never really cared and everything that we've been through lately didn't mean anything to him. Why can't I get him off of my mind? He knows I'm angry with him, I confronted him on Friday of last week. I felt hot tears stream down my cheeks as I began to remember everything I said to him.

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"Why do you do this?! You're always doing this to me!" I yelled at him. He sent me a questionable look,

"What are you talking about, Rebbeca!"

"Why are you trying to decide between Kassie and I! This is not some game, my feelings is not something you can toy around with!"

"Know what? I'm done with this crap! I told you I have feelings for you, didn't I? Yes, I did! Since you don't want to believe me then that's fine! You're hurting yourself, I'm not doing anything to hurt you! I'm done. I'm tired of this shit with you, bye." He yells before he walks away. My heart tightened and then fell to pieces.

"I'M TIRED OF YOU TOO! FUCK YOU AND YOUR BULLSHIT!" I yelled back.

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I wiped away the tears and placed the palm of my hand to my heart.

"How does he have the power to do this to me? I don't understand how one person can fuck you up so bad that it makes you feel so down." I said to myself.

****Later on that day****

Ring.

Ring.

"Aye, what up?" I asked through the phone.

"Hey, Becks it's Dana. I need to tell you something but please don't feel too bad about it... I'm telling you this because I care about you and you need to know the truth." She says. I can feel my chest ache at the sound of that, knowing that it would be bad news... for me.

"Just tell me, nothing could ever make me feel worse than how I already feel now." I sighed.

"Well.... Austin slept with Camila last night. I couldn't sleep a-" I quickly ended the phone call and threw my phone onto the bed. This can't be happening, not again!


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So I updated, finally! I've had writer's block for a while on this story but here it is! I'mma update more in a little while got to do something first! :)

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