Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras na kong nakayuko at umiiyak pero hanggang ngayon para parin akong tangang umiiyak.
nung napagod na ko humiga na lang ako in a fetus position. i did not bother to turn on the lights. nahiga nalang ako bigla dun. i feel so drained. kaya nga ayokong bumalik eh.
i dont wanna bring up the past that i've been burying for so long.
and that wedding picture inside our room witnessed how i stumbled and fall crying while packing my things and how hard it is leaving everything behind.
everything that makes me happy.
everything that defines happiness for me.
i can feel my body rocking so hard. but really. i cant stop crying. iyak lang ako ng iyak.
its so dark around and i know its 8pm already but i hardly noticed. i cant think of anything but this searing pain inside me.
and i wanna stop asking myself those words.
"Saan ba kasi ako nagkulang?"
i keep on crying till i fell asleep.
i dont know how long i've been sleeping. nagising nalang ako na may kumakatok sa pinto ng entertainment room. tumayo ako para buksan yung pinto. bigla nalang akong niyakap nung kumakatok.
"i thought you left." Lance said worriedly. i pushed him gently.
"i'm tired Lance. i wanna sleep." i said softly and start walking towards the our room.
"i'm tired Lance. i wanna sleep." Venice started walking to our room and i was left dumbfounded.
i can bet my head she has been crying for a long time. when i saw her opened the door. para kong sinuntok sa sikmura nung makita ko yung muka nya. namamaga yung mata nya.
anu bang iniiyakan nya? pumasok ako sa entertainment room. paupo sana ako sa sofa nung maapakan ko yung remote. and biglang nagplay yung video..
wedding video namin.
kaya pala sya umiiyak.
iniisip nya nanaman siguro na kasinungalingan yung kasal namin.
but it was never a lie.
i never married her for any reason except i love her?
didnt i showed her that?
i showed Venice how much i love her in every way that i can.
hindi pa ba sapat yun? isnt that enough para maisip nya na hindi lang to tungkol sa merger?
napabuntong hininga nalang ako saka pinatay yung Tv saka yung player.
and so i'm back to square one.
i dont know how to convince my wife to believe me again.
dedicated kay Ainna25. Xiaxiacarr saka kay Crestacream. ;) kahit sabaw talaga yung nasa isip ko sorry na. salamat ;)
BINABASA MO ANG
Fair Share of the PastRomance
Venice: Damn you Lance! damn you to hell! stop meddling with my life. mind your own business! Lance: Damn right! i'm minding my business. you're my business! Venice: damn you! you dont have any right to tell me what to do! Lance: no Love, of course...