TRAPPED

Forty three

his hands lingers on my waist firmly, tension building his body's heat swimming on my body.

my skin burning in his touch, I sighed when his hand moving to my stomach the shirt is sticking to sweat. his  dark eyes staring at me. its like asking for words or commanding the submission i close my eyes for him to kiss me, i gave him my submission. his breathing even as if he is not giving me hell burning sensations. 

god why I'm feeling this to the monster...

he leaned to my ear,' you look beautiful in my cloths ,'' my breath hitched at the soft tone and breathing quickening. Heart pounding I'm sure he can hear my heart beat. he never been gentle with me but why today. why he is doing this ?

i open my eyes to see his eyes are no more dark its pure crystal clear eyes pure adoration in his eyes. am i dreaming?. should i kiss him...

my lips parted a heavy breath i was holding,'' kiss me !!''

before i can think i blurt it out, and his eyes amused at my words as if he was expecting..

without another word his lips on mine its smooth and gentle. I kissed him back with same intensity smooth and gentle. he taste so good on my lips eyes searching something i couldn't pin point of.

his hands tighten on my waist and his body leaning more onto mine, my hands on his chest i can feel his breathing getting wild. he broke the kiss when am out of breath but he is still normal. 

he is holding me captive on his arms and i can feel him he is showing me something that i cant forget. 

''you can take rest violate'' one second he is warm and another second he is  cold as ice my heart clutch at his behaviour. did i expect to much from him,, yes too much from a man who cant have mercy on people who can kill anyone without another thought. he is heartless , he didn't change just plays with my emotions.

he got out of the room without another word leaving me alone he cant be gentle he is just know how to manipulate people.

its my mistake i took this moment little more and ask him for something that he cant give...

******

sitting on my bed holding my head on my hands my headache has risen again, i want to break something the faint voices coming again i don't know why this is so difficult to push the voices but i cant anymore, i cant take this. it only come when I'm in extreme pain or shocking episodes the voices the flashes i dont know who. who is this voices...

i searched everywhere in my room, my house is a mess i cant find any tablets any bottle any single pill that can help this headache, but none if j was there she never leave me like this should i call her? 

i should call her...

i searched my phone but under the cloth the room but couldn't find it.... i think i left my phone on chief house i need my phone.. 

i don't know where is she i don't know where j is i need her now i need the pill which she gives me to take this voices..