Horrifyingly Sexy

chapter 52

I stared at the ceiling all night. I was thinking to much about where i was going to go and how i was going to stay hidden to even try to sleep. My brain was racing with ideas. And i just hoped that one of them was gohng to work.

After a couple of hour passed and i decided that i wasn't going to try and go to sleep any longer. I sighed and rolled out of bed.

I grapped my robe and quietly walked out of my room. I snuck out of the door and made my way silently down the corridor.

I made my way to the main door and snuck out to walk to the Black Lake. Once i got there i sat down by the water.

I kicked my shoes off and put my feet in the water. It was a bit cold but it felt nice. Gosh i was going to miss this place.

I looked up at the sky and tried to count the stars to keep my mind off of leaving all of this behind. Tears started to form in my eyes and they spilled down my cheeks.

I hastily wiped the tears away and sighed. I was going to be leaving the only place that i could actually call home.

I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I started to hum a tune in my head, but i eventually started to sing it, " Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion -
Is nothing new
Flashback - warm nights -
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after -

Sometimes you picture me -
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said -
Then you say - go slow -
I fall behind -
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look - and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows - you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time -

If you're lost...

You said go slow -
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds -

If you're lost...
...Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time" (Time After Time Cindy Lauper)

As i let the words flow out of my mouth the tears fell from my eyes. I thought about how messed up my life was and how i had no idea who i was or how to even find myself.

I signed and i stood up. I slid my shoes back on and started to make my way back towards my room. I still had a couple of hours to kill before i was going to leave. And i had no idea how i was going to send it.