"Main bahut bura hoon Sana..bahut bura..kitne waade..kitna kuch kaha ki..mein tumhe kabhi dukh nahi dunga..yeh nahi karunga..woh nahi karunga..par dekho ..ek galat fehmi ke wajah se..apne hi Jaan ko itna dukh de baitha...maine bahut bura kiya hai tumhare saath Sana..par tum mujhe saza de jo bhi Dena hai mein..sab Maan lunga..bas kabhi mera haat mat chodna..kabhi nahi..kyunki is dil mein ab bhi tumhare hi naam se meri dhadkane chalti hai"whispered Sid broken voice..while Sana kept clutching his suit.. being vulnerable..
"Sid agar aapko sacchayi nahi pata chalti toh aaj aap Nitya se hi shadi karte..aaj aap uske hote...main nahi chati uske saath kuch bura ho..aakhir usne bhi aapko apna maana hai..aapke saath zindagi beetaane ka sapna dekha hai..aur mein kisi ladki ke sajaye huye sapne todna nahi chati.. isliye aap chale jayiye Sid...mein..mein reh lungi..humare beetaaye huye kuch mahino ke yaadon ke saath....wahi kafi hai mere liye..aur rahi baat humare bacche ki..yeh aapka hai..mein janam dungi..par aapko saup dungi...mein nahi chati ki isme bhi mere bure sanskar hi mile..mein aapne aur aapke khusiyaan me beech nahi aana chati..aap chale jayiye.."saying so Sana turned around.. wiping her tears looking upwards to control her emotions...
Sid kept looking her back with teary eyes..he turned her face through his index finger..and touched their forehead with each other...he looked to her eyes directly and said,"Ek baar jo gunaah kar baitha hoon..use mein doharaana nahi chata..is Janam nahi, us janam bhi nahi..tu meri hai..aur mein tera...ab jab tumhare pass aaya hoon..Tumhara haat jab kaske pakra hai .. saying so he held her hand and continued,toh use chodne ke liye nahi..uske saath chalne ke liye pakra hoon..aur ab mein rahunga bhi tumhare saath, jeeyunga bhi tumhare saath aur marunga bhi tumhare saath hi.."
While Sana kept looking at him.. feeling his every emotions.. through the words he spoke..she was overwhelmed by his words..it's like..in someway..those words were putting ointment on her injuries..deep inside her heart..yes the damage is permanent..but somewhere..his confession was curing those damaged parts to some extent...
Chaha tha..kya paaya hai kya humne dekhiye..
Dil mein magar jalte rahe..
Chahat ke diye..tere liye..
Tere liye..
Tere liye..tere liye...
Sid looked at her face..it was devoid of any glow..he could feel her vulnerability..he could understand her suppressed pain..he slowly hold her face and said.."Jeetna daatna hai daat lo..jeetna rona hai..ro lo...kyunki ab mei tumhe sirf khusiyaan Dena chata hoon..dard nahi..pata hai pehle bhi kaha tha... par ab..pakkam pakke waade ke saath keh raahan hoon..hum saath humesha rahenge..tumhe khushiyon se bhar dunga ..par uski jagah banane ke liye..tumhe apne andar ke saare dard aur takleef ko bahar fekna hoga..aaj aur abhi jeetna rona hai ro lo meri jaan..tumhare liye mein hoon..."saying so Sid rubbed her palm lovingly..while Sana's eyes slowly started getting teary again..and with that she started crying loudly .. falling on her knees..while Sid hold her slowly keeping her close to himself.. caressing her back... consoling her..his own eyes got teary.. listening Sana's loud and pai ful cried..she kept crying keeping her head on his chest and opening up herself completely like an open book..
"Main aapko kisi aur ke saath nahi dekh parahi thi Sid..aur kabhi bhi nahi dekh paungi..mein har pal mar rahi thi..jab aapko kisi aur ke kareeb jaate dekha ...meri sansein chal Rahi thi..par mein maano is jagah nahi thi..mein bahut akele par gayi thi Sid..maa ya Neha ..kisi ko apne kareeb nahi aane diya..itna apne gaam mein dungi huyi thi..aap jab coma mein the..har pal aapko apne saamne , apne pass mehsoos karne ke liye tarasti thi..har jagah aapko dhundti thi..lar aap nahi hote the...tab bahut roti thi..bahut .maani meri zindagi hi khatam ho gayi thi..main nahi reh sakti aapke bina..nahi reh sakti"saying so Sana kept crying..while Sid too cried silently along with her..after sometime, she stopped crying..her throat become dried because of continuous crying..her eyes become deep red..and her cheeks and nose turned to deep shed of red..Sid slowly make her drink water.. making her Sid on her bed...
He hold her hands and asked..if she was okay..she nodded her head with a smile..to which Sid took smiled.. suddenly his eyes fall on her big baby bump...he felt sudden pride of seeing the bump carrying his blood..their sign of love.. result of their immense love making...he slowly caressed the baby bump with his shaky hands..and smiled blissfully.. feeling presence of his baby..he then looked at Sana..who too smiled and nodded her head ...
Sid hugged her fro stomach and kissed it lovingly saying,"Mera pyaara baccha..papa ki galat fehmi ke wajah se ..aap aur aapke mumma se..mein yaani aapke papa bahut dur rahe..galat kiya..par ab mein , mumma aur aap yaani ki humare chotu se bacche ..humesha saath rahenge..haste khelte rahenge..bas aap bahar aajao..dekhna.. duniya ki saari khushiyan..aapke papa..aapke mumma aur aapke saamne rakh denge..bas aap thik raho aur jaldi mere godh mein aajao"saying so Sid kept hugging the bump..and kissing it continuously..while Sana too smiled blissfully..
Sid then looked at her and said,"Hum saath bahar jaayenge aur mein Nitya se maafi bhi maang lunga..par tumse aur humare bacche se alag nahi reh paunga...Kaash mei tum par bharosa karta..toh aaj hum pehle se hi khush rehte..tumhare pure pregnancy mein hum khusiyaan manate..tumhe mein saath de pata..par yeh nahi ho paya..bahut kuch miss kar baitha..par ab nahi
...uparwale ne ek aur mauka Diya hai..sab kuch thik karne ka.. isliye ek pal bhi mein tumse dur nahi rahunga..jo khusiyaan tumhe mein pure 8 mahine nahi de paya....uski Kami mein ab poora karunga ."saying so Sid got up and hugged her lovingly..while Sana too hugged him close to herself ..
It was looking like..after days of darkness finally the light of trust and love evolved within two souls..and helped them to come out of the darkness happily..alongwith the new light of hope which was going to brighten their life even more.... Finally the long phase of pain came to an end..and from here starts the journey of new beginnings..
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