in through the nose. out through the mouth.
that's what you kept telling yourself as you stood on the other side of a large brown door. camera crews and trucks were parked all throughout the driveway and the large mansion was bustling with life, everyone busy and full of purpose, unlike you, who was debating turning your ass right back around and driving home. your phone buzzed in your hand and you flipped it.
bil <3
bitch i see u standing outside come in
fuck. she had your location. now you had no choice but to go in.
billie had invited you to be in her music video for her new song "lost cause," and as her best friend, you couldn't turn her down. she sounded so excited about it and you appreciated that she wanted to include you in her projects, so you agreed. however, as you opened the door to see multiple jaw dropping girls in pyjamas, you wished you had said no. you hated how you felt insecure around them, but you felt like an outlier. the fact that billie had only invited you because you were her best friend made you feel even worse.
i don't belong here, you thought to yourself.
you were pulled out of your thoughts by a pair of arms wrapping around you. you hugged back, seeing the familiar brown hair of billie's mother.
"y/nn," she greeted excitedly.
"hi maggie," you greeted back, pushing all your negative thoughts to the back of your head.
"nice to see you," she smiled, "billie's upstairs, third door on the right."
"nice to see you too," you said as you turned to the staircase.
"oh wait," she called, causing you to turn around. she looked around for a minute before finding what she was looking for, handing you a pile of neatly folded clothes.
"go ahead and change while you're up there," she said.
you went up the stairs and knocked on the door.
"come in," billie called out.
you opened the door slowly, seeing billie lying down on the bed in a light blue satin set, a robe of the same colour discarded on an armchair nearby.
"y/nnnn," she said, getting up to hug you, allowing you full view of her outfit. her shorts cut off an inch or so below the top of her thigh and the blue tank top hung loosely off her body, the lace of her bra peeking out.
"billieee," you responded, hugging her tightly.
"i'm so excited," she said as she let go of you.
"i can tell, i mean look at all this," you said.
"did you meet anyone yet?" she asked.
"no, just your mom," you said.
"come on," she said, grabbing your hand.
"i think i have to change first," you laughed. she let go of your hand and hummed in agreeance.
you dropped your pants and took your shirt off, changing quickly. you and billie had all but seen each other naked. once you were changed, you looked in the mirror, tugging at the set, but nothing seemed to make you feel more comfortable. before, you were protected by your sweater, but now all you had on was a set that was only slightly more modest than billie's. you took a deep breath and followed her out of the room and back down the stairs. spirits were high, you could tell by the laughter that echoed through the whole living room. they had a twister board out, playing together as a bonding exercise before any filming started. music rang through the entire house. billie pulled you to the hair and makeup station, where you sat for thirty-ish minutes while they styled you. once you were done, you walked back to the living room, all of them still involved in the game of twister. you searched for billie, seeing her contorted in a strange backbend on the twister board with two other girls. she smiled at you and you smiled back shyly. as you walked up to the group, all eyes were on you.
