𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬ⁿᵃᵈᵉⁿ

𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡

nessa

we start the interview.

"hey nessa welcome back." zack greets. "thank u for having me back." i smile nodding once. "so we just wanted to catch up with u and talk." zack tells me and i nod.

"so again stop me if im crossing a line here but have u and jaden tried getting pregnant?" zack asks me.

i could feel tears come bc this is a touchy subject me and jaden never talked about with anyone except our parents and our closest friends.

"umm actually about that i-" i trail off trying to finish my senesce. "so there is something no one knows expect our parents and closest closest friends but umm." i try to find my words.

"back at june 5th i found out i was pregnant and then on june 24th i lost the baby." i say. "oh my god." zack says feeling my emotions.

"nessa we don't have to." he suggested. "its fine i feel like its time for people to know." i nod slowly.

"at first when i found out i was pregnant i was happy because i thought it would've never happen again and like i said it was umm rare." i swallow a lump in my throat.

"and i was still going through my ED during my pregnancy so i feel like this is my fault." i say feeling hot tears so i wipe them with the palm of my hand.

"this is no ones fault." he whispers in the mic looking at me. "i-i know." i nod stuttering.

"im not trying to be funny when i say this so please take this serious but umm." i warn everyone.

"its been a bit since jaden and i had sex and sex with us is just very hard right now." i say fidgeting with the water bottle.

"and i just i feel bad for him bc he thinks he has to stay strong for me through this even tho he is going through a ruff time too and nori is too young to understand what's happening or what happened." i explain with my voice shaky.

"how are u guys handling it?" he asks. he knows it was a dumb question but i know he didn't know what else to say.

"its just like on and off right now." i answer. "i just-jaden and i are trying to be there for each other as much as we can and right now nori is staying with parker cause we just we have no strength to do anything at the moment and we been laying in bed all the time and just sleeping." i explain

the painful truth.