𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬ⁿᵃᵈᵉⁿ

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nessa and jaden sit on the couch and sets the computer up on the table in nessa's apartment. today she is doing a Q&A to questions fans have sent her on instagram and tiktok. she starts the live on the computer.

"hi guys so like promised i am doing a Q&A i know you've been waiting for this for awhile and i'm finally doing it so here we go." nessa explains.

"first question." nessa says.

"what is something that changed u for the better?" nessa reads.

"i think music and friends i've had right now and in the past to be honest when i lived with my parents i just lived in a very toxic house hold and i remember all i would do is lay in my room on my bed or even the floor with my headphones blasting music and the music i listened to like i could relate to it so it did really help in situations time from time and challenges that i have faces and with just i think having toxic friends u grow once u find out they are toxic so like they aren't around to do anything to like bring u down if that makes sense." nessa explains.

"are u still close to ur family?"

"i mean im close to my mom, brother, grandma my dad we don't really talk or text that much honestly so i think i'm close to part of my family but not all of them." nessa explains.

"are u planning to have kids soon?" nessa reads off the phone.

"i want to have kids maybe in the future but now right now bc i'm still struggling badly and i am just a mess to have kids right now but maybe in a few years i would love to have a kid." nessa smiles.

"is there new music coming?"

"yes american jesus is coming out on the 28th and i'm always working on a new EP just about toxic romantic relationships i don't know when that's coming out but maybe eventually."

"what is something u need to forgive yourself for?" she reads.

"for being so hard on myself all the time and randomly lashing out on people and start not bringing myself down every second of the day." nessa answers.

"can u bring life's a ness back please." nessa says.

"not a bad idea to be honest i mean it will be a new era and everything and i haven't done one in so long so maybe stay tuned and if i think about it i will post one every wednesday and sunday of just like maybe fun new stuff but yeah definitely stay tuned." nessa smiles.

"what's ur favorite artist and song right now?" nessa reads.

"my favorite artist right now is melanie martinez or NF." nessa says.

"hey." jaden says sounding offended.

"and ofc u duh." nessa smiles and kisses him.

"my favorite song is probably remember this or hate myself definitely i feel like i can relate that to me so much in different ways so he has been my favorite artist since i was 14 and just going through a rough time." nessa explains.

"also melanie martinez's new album portals is out now and it's truly amazing and i love it and i'm in love with it and please just go listen my favorite song on there is probably tunnel vision." nessa adds.

"who do u miss the most?" nessa reads.

"my best friend cooper fucking noriega i just feel like nothing will ever be the same without him we were supposed to go together that's what we talked about but i know he would want me to be here doing what i love and being here with all of u but just to be blunt i hope the person that sold him that type of drug and it is very very dangerous if u mix it with others along it's self but i hope i hope that person burns in hell because how could u give a 19 year old person when he already had a drug addiction give him that type of stuff today today he would've been 10 months sober and yes i count still bc i also had a bad addiction myself and knowing that he could last that long it gives me hope." nessa explains with tears in her eyes.

"i love u." jaden whispers in her ear and kisses her cheek softly.

"anyways next question." nessa says and reads "what's ur favorite song off pretty poison? what's ur favorite song off ur album? what's ur favorite single? and what's ur favorite love song and i want jaden's answer too if ur doing this with him."

"my favorite was my from my EP is god that's hard umm scare myself or ihymud bc they are just so real to me and i just fell in love with them as soon as i wrote them." nessa starts. "all of young forever is my favorite but maybe fuck marry kill and die first and from my extended too is noose or god's favorite." nessa adds. "my favorite single is la di die." nessa says. "then my favorite love song is american jesus?" nessa smiles.

"chicky ur turn." nessa looks at jaden.

"grave, madhouse or love bomb, 505 cover or deathmatch, la die die ofc, and american jesus because they are all fucking masterpieces made by a very beautiful, talented, adorable little angel." jaden smiles causing nessa to giggle.

"what's ur favorite song from every one of ur songs?" nessa reads.

"oh god this is going to take awhile including every single song on the album so i'm going to say these really fast." nessa posters her body.

pain: should i say i'm sorry?
if u love me: if u love me let me go
la di die: loving me is suicide
counting crimes: i don't wanna play
dying on the inside: it's the dinner conservation nobody talks about

pretty poison: ur words are dead i hope u choke
keep me afraid: u better run cause i got the gun
scare myself: am i gonna cause me pain?
ihymud: but i won't cause i know one day it'll come around so fuck u for now
grave: the only thing keeping me out of the grave is u
i wanna die: ur my jesus ur my god
sincerely: my mom's voicemail

tired if california: came here for the weekend but i haven't left in years
gaslight: i'm not crazy if i'm right
talk to myself: if u talk to me like i talk to myself id give u the finger id go to hell
fmk: they don't care if i live or die join the club baby neither do i
dear god: don't u love us all the same I've taken more than my share of pain
forgive the world: when i'm in ur arms layin' in the dark
too hot to cry: and i know you'll hate me call me crazy but I've never looked better than this
madhouse: they wanna love me and then slut shame me batshit crazy can u blame me
unnecessary violence: is this the future waiting for me another needless horror story
lovebomb: just so u know i'm sorry
decay: but I'll still love u even after we decay
die first: but if one of us dies i hope i die first
lucky: waiting for the angel to be on my side so i can sleep at night

deathmatch: my minds they fight all night and i wake up exhausted held hostage
do u really wanna hurt me: ur gonna make me cry
god's favorite: i was prayin late at night please don't let me die but it takes someone truly special to survive
noose: hate me oh hate me i hate too

american jesus: he's got pretty long brown hair and eyes that look like sex

nessa is now out of breath jaden rubs her back.

"take a breathe." jaden rubs her back.

"who are some people who saved ur life?"

"umm my mom, cooper, jaden, bryce, and my littke brother julian and u guys ofc." nessa smiles.

"i saved ur life." 🥺. "yes ofc u did." nessa kisses his cheek.

"final question." nessa says. "scare myself or talk to myself?" nessa reads.

"fuck that's hard I love them both umm scare myself what about u?" nessa asks jaden. "scare myself always." jaden answers.

"okay well thank u guys for joining i love u have an amazing day love u love u love." nessa hits end live.

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I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH AND I KNOW I DONT POST ON SUNDAYS BUT I JUST COULDNT WAIT TO DO THIS ONE. ANOTHER ONE ON MONDAY OR TUESDAY. LOVE U GUYS ALL SM AND THANK U SM.

HAPPY EASTER 🐰