"It doesn't even Matter." She said... Or does it?!
Allie is a 8 year old girl who is an orphan, she's been there for about three years and then finally she gets adopted. By who? Mariska and Peter of course! But soon after Allie settles in she starts...
Flashback "Amaya, your sister has been through a lot of trauma in the last couple of years." Dad noted. "Yeah, but she's been doing fine these last couple of months, so I don't understand why she's upset now. You guys said she was getting better." "Healing isn't just one continuous path, sweetheart." Mom said. "She's just always upset though, it's not fair. She ruins everything." I cried. "She ruins everything and I hate it. I hate seeing her sad, but it's so annoying that family time gets ruined by her emotions. We finally get to see Dad after months and she's grumpy. Like it just ruins everything!" I cried onto my hands and Mama and Daddy rubbed my back. "I just want one good moment, like we already have weird fans and paparazzi ruining things! I just want one good thing sometimes. I didn't mean to hurt her feelings. I was just upset." "And we know that Amaya. My-My, your feelings are 1000% valid. Having a sibling like Allie is not easy, which is why Mom and I try our best to accommodate you guys and make up for things, but speaking to Allie like that when she's in a time of crisis isn't nice or fair. Has Allie ever treated you that way?" I sat and thought about it. "When I'm upset, Allie always tries to cheer me up." I've been a mean sister. I should've asked her what was wrong. I feel horrible, but at the same time, Allie can be so frustrating. "And you should do the same for her, even if it gets tiring because you know what? We're a family and we love each other, even when we hate each other." Mom said. "I think you and Allie should talk so that you guys can come to some sort of understanding." "Yeah, we should. But she probably hates me." "She doesn't hate you, she's just hurt. And My-My, don't let these feelings about Allie, or anything for that matter bottle up inside you. You've got Mom and me. Tell us. Okay?" "I will." We all hugged.
End of Flashback*
I was horrible to Allie. But it's not because I hate her. I love her so much. It's just, sometimes her emotions upset me, I hate seeing her upset, and I hate when everything becomes about her. But I need to make things right.
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I put my hands out to play with the fish. They were really beautiful and colorful. Further down I could see 6 fish, all together, moving in harmony. That's my family. That's how we should be. ^^^^^^^^ Screaming Eagle Restaurant (Eagle Beach, Aruba) (8:53 PM) "I'm starvinggggggg, when are the appetizers coming out?" Andy asked. "Soon Andrew, patience is key." "Dad, patience is not key when you're hungry! When you're hungry, you gotta eat. You don't postpone eating! That's nuts." "Someone needs a Snickers.." I joked. "Badly." Allie said with a chuckle. Allie responded to a joke I said. Are we making up? "Andrew's probably having a major growth spurt. Before you know it, he'll be taller than you, Mom." August quipped. "I'm not ready for that yet. Don't even start." Mama said while putting her hand over her heart. "Here is your Caprese salad and dumplings." "These look delicious, thank you so much!" Dad said. "So guys, peak and pit of the day, let's go. Rapid fire." Mama said. "We should let Dad go first, he can never get to the point so it gives us more time to think." August joked. Everyone laughed. "Very funny. I think the peak of my day was definitely this dinner and just spending time with you guys. You guys have grown up so much, and I'm so blessed to have you guys and your mother. My pit..probably August's comment, as true as it is." I smiled. "Go ahead My-My." Mama said. "My peak was snorkeling, and my pit was the ride to the beach. It was super bumpy." We all shared our highs and lows and laughed while doing so. This is what I like. This is a vacation. **************** The Ritz (March 20th) (9:45 AM) (August's Perspective) "So, why did you want to go on a walk with me?" Allie asked while taking out her headphones. I put my arm around her shoulder. "Because I'm your big brother and I love you." "Not because you wanna make sure I'm not mentally deranged?" "Well, I wanna make sure you're okay. You're not mentally deranged, Allie." "Sure, I guess." "I'm not mentally deranged but I'm not okay either." "It's fine to not be okay." "Yeah." "What's wrong?" She sighed. "The reason why I was upset was because I was upset that I was upset. I know it makes zero sense but...I feel like I don't deserve to be upset. I put you guys through a lot with my emotions and I don't want you to deal with that anymore. But at the airport, I had a panic attack. Everything with like Josh and the meds just bubbled up and I could t hide it anymore." "Allie, you're entitled to have feelings. Feelings are what make you human. It's okay to be upset, especially with what you've been through." "I just don't want to upset anyone. I made Maya snap." "Maya doesn't understand, it isn't her fault either." We sat down on the sand. "I'm sorry." I said. "You didn't do anything Auggie." "No, I mean, I'm sorry for not being a better brother to you." I looked straight at the ocean. "August.." "I should've been a better brother. Back when you were in middle school, instead of fighting with you so much." "All siblings fight, it doesn't mean you were a bad brother to me. You were there for me through everything; my bio bro, me going to Utah, Josh, I mean you didn't tell Mom or Dad which was awesome. You had your own things going on too August, everyone has low points." "I just wish you'd tell that to yourself." I told her sincerely. "Allow yourself to feel. You're getting better, but it doesn't mean that you aren't allowed to have emotions. Emotions are normal." She nodded before hugging me. ****************** Submarine Tour (Oranjestad, Aruba) (1:34 PM) (Andrew's Perspective) "Oh my god! Mariska Hargitay!" A group of girls rushed over to Mama and I just happened to sliver away in time before they caught me. "I thought we'd be safe in Aruba." Amaya said before putting her sunglasses on. "We aren't safe anywhere, My-My." "Mariska, I'll see you inside?" Dad asked. "Yeah, just give me 5!" Mom and Dad seem happy with each other, but sometimes I can't tell if it's real or not. "Dad?" "Yeah, bud?" "Are you and Mommy, okay? Like really okay?" Dad looked around before putting an arm on my shoulder. "Andy, me and mom are just fine-" "Fine isn't good. Or great." Amaya watched with a finger in her mouth. "He's not wrong, Daddy." "Andy, we'll talk about it later, okay? Mom and I are good, I promise." "That's not what People Magazine says." "Andy, our life...isn't filled with much drama, so people try to look for drama whenever they can. Magazines are like that, but you know the truth." "Not really, but I guess so." Mama came back. "You guys ready?" "Yep." We all said in unison, sort of ignoring the weird convo we just had. ^^^^^^^^^^^^ On The Submarine "We will soon begin our descent." "I can't believe we're about to go like 200 feet underwater. It's so weird, like it's sending chills down my spine." Amaya said while staring out the window. "So then why don't planes scare you?" I asked while rolling my eyes. "Andy!"
