I moved dazais body off of me as gently as I could before slipping out of my warm bed to get a glass of water.
The words dazai said from my dream kept repeating in my head making me wonder if that was actually how he feels. Does he really think of me as a toy.
I got my glass of water and drank it at the counter until I heard the creak of the floor bored meaning someone was coming in the room.
I looked up to see my sleepy lover rubbing his eyes before looking at me in concern. "Are you ok doppo"?
I nodded with a soft smile. "Yea I just got thirsty. Don't worry love".
"Your a lier". He mumbled walking over to me and resting his head on my shoulder.
I sighed and nodded. "Your right. I had a nightmare and I'm trying to calm down".
"Why didn't you wake me up? I could help you"?
Dazai hugged me tightly and nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck.
"I didn't want to wake you over pointless things ".
"Nightmares are not pointless especially if they are affecting you this much. Plus you always help me when I am having a nightmare so let me do the same for you".
I smiled softly the. Turned around in his arms hugging him back. "Thank you love. You really don't know how much you being here means to me".
Dazai smiled at me pressing a kiss to my lips and pulling away again. "We'll don't worry because I'm never leaving you. Your important to me to do I could never leave. I just expect you to never leave me first".
I laughed at his fake glare then pressed a kiss to his forehead. "Don't worry love I'm not going anywhere ".
"Good. Now come on I'm tired and I wanna cuddle". He grabbed my hand and brought us back to bed then laid on my chest like he had before.
"Osa do you ever regret choosing me. Like you would rather date someone better then me"?
"Better then you? Who could possibly be better then a kind gentle when not angry idealist and not to mention the hottest guy I know". He giggled at his last few words making me roll my eyes with a smile.
"We'll i mean I'm sure you could have done better then me. Like find some rich handsome man or woman who would let you do whatever you wanted. Someone who didn't hold you back".
"Kunikida I tried the rich hot boyfriend thing and I'll tell you. Don't date rich. There all assholes. And as for not holding me back from doing things I want I think you might have forgotten my #1 hobbie. If I didn't have someone to hold me back I'd be long gone by now ".
I frowned and shook my head. "But when we got together you stopped doing those things ".
"That's because I love you kunikida and you mentioned that you don't like me doing that stuff and I don't want to make you sad so I stopped. And also just you being here has made living bearable. In fact I never want to die as long as your by my side. You are my reason for living kunikida. No one else could ever be that for me".
I felt tears full the brim of my eyes as dazai smiled at me.
"Kunikida I don't know if you know this or not but insted of the typical I would die for you I feel like I should be saying
I'll live for you".
That made me so happy. I felt a few tears escape my eyes making dazais eyes blow wide and he freaked out pressing kisses to each year that cascade down my face.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry".
"I'm not crying because I'm sad. I'm just so relieved that you love me so much".
"I do"!
I gently cupped his cheeks in my hands and pulled him into a soft kiss that he instantly returned making me smile.
How could I ever doubt him. That dream I had were just my insecurities trying to get to me.
I pulled away and let go of dazai so he could lay back in the position he was in earlier .
"Thank you osamu". I whisper and he nods.
"I told you you help me whenever I need help so I'll always be there for you if you need help.
I nodded and smiled at him which he smiled back.
"Ok let's get some sleep now. I'm tired".
"Alright. Goodnight osamu"
"Goodnight doppo. And don't forget I'll always love you".
With that I fell asleep to be greeted by a good dream now.
Goodnight
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