Starting Over

35.

I wake with a stretch and notice the bed is empty when I open my eyes I see Hunter isn't in bed with me and that I'm in my childhood bedroom. We must of stayed here last night as I don't remember leaving or going to bed. I go to the bathroom and quickly wash my face and brush my teeth with my toothbrush I keep here hoping to cure this horrible hangover feeling. I decide to head downstairs in my pyjama shorts and hunters t-shirt. I'm shocked to see everyone around then breakfast table chatting. Mason stands and wraps his arms around me.

"Thank god someone who is also hungover and looks rough like me"

He laughs I elbow him and pretend to be offended before pushing myself out of his arms and over to Hunter I pass the empty chair and plop myself down on his lap and instantly cuddle into his chest, he smells freshly showered and has clean clothes on.

"Morning baby you need to eat and have something to drink"

He tells me with a kiss on my head

"5 minutes, a cuddle first I missed you"

I say in a quiet voice this makes him wrap his arms around me.

"Missed me ? I stayed here with you. I tried to wake you an hour ago but you wouldn't even open your eyes"

He says with a slight laugh at the end I shrug and hold him tight closing my eyes. I want to be held and cared for which is a sign of me slowly slipping, I know I can't do it here in front of everyone but for some reason Hunter is making me feel like the only person in the house.

"Yep i said it all night and I will say it again, you've gone soft Hunter mate."

Alex says stuffing his face with food

"Shut up Alex."

I say opening my eyes and sitting up before turning to him. My warm and comfortable feeling now gone.

"Eat your food and mind your business. He's not gone soft you don't even know him."

Everyone seems shocked at my small outburst but the truth is with some of his comments last night it's been planting small doubts in my head.. is Hunter happy? Has he gone soft or is this not the real him ? I mean I'm a sub/little that barely goes into little space or submits, I argue back and he rarely punishes me.. am I really what Hunter wants or does he feel trapped now that I live with him.

"Arabella, it's fine I have worked and known Alex a long long time he's just trying to annoy you and me let it go.

Hunter says I narrow my eyes at him why is he being stern with me and calling me by my full name. now officially annoyed with the world I slip off his lap and into my seat where I begin filling my breakfast plate. The chatter soon fills the table as I angrily eat with Hunters eyes on my every move.