Lost

Chapter 10 ~ 🍃

After breakfast, I head back to my room. As I get some old, black swim trunks, I can't help but think about Serina.

There's so much she doesn't know, so much that she can do, and yet so little time to tell her. The worst part is, I can't tell her because Val says she's just not ready yet. But will she ever be ready? I know I wouldn't...

So much of Solunaria's fate relies on Serina, and yet she's still just a kid... I would take her place if I could, but I can't. And so, I just wait for it to get so bad that Val has no choice but to tell Serina her destiny...

I wish I knew what to do, but the truth is, I'm still so young myself. Sure, I'd been in training to become Florae's monarch since I was in diapers, but now, I feel as if I've lost my direction. It feels as if everything's lost. I've tried so hard to stop him, but I just can't. Our only hope is Serina, but she still thinks she's just a normal human being...

Should I tell her? The answer is so complicated... On one hand, she has to eventually find out the truth if Solunaria is to survive, but on the other, the more she knows, the greater danger she is in. I've spent her whole life trying to protect her. But sometimes I feel as if even that's not enough... I wish someone were here to help guide me, but I'm all that's left of the royal family besides Ser, so I guess I'm on my own...

Sluggishly, I change into my trunks. I walk over and look in my dusty mirror; I try to give myself a reassuring smile, but I know it's fake. I'm the strongest Florae left alive, but one day even I won't be strong enough to protect her. And that's what scares me. Because deep down, I know that if we lose her... the war is lost... all hope is lost... everything that once made up the great six kingdoms will be lost forever...