Chapter 18

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Chan's P.O.V

I drove the others out of my room though everyone insisted on staying with me. It was only after I promised to never disappear again that they finally went to their respective rooms to get some most needed rest.

They have been through a lot. I have put them through a lot too. But instead of hating myself for it I now want to change. I was too dense to not realise how much pain everyone suffered through.

9 years ago, what happened was unfortunate, was horrible. But me trying to escape the reality won't do any good. Instead it is hurting my family even more.

I still remember Minho and Changbin being heartboken as they were forced to leave Jisung and Felix. But they tried to hide their sorrow for my sake. Oh how confused was little Seungmin-ah when we told him that he can't play with his Jeonginnie anymore, neither could he say goodbye. How truely hurt our parents were when they lost their best friends but everyone was left helpless.

Yet they all tried to console me, they tried to be strong for me. So I can do the same now.

I have to.

I thought that I was the cause of all the harm that had befallen on the ones I loved the most. But now I know that I can also be the solution who can make things right again. I have to be! And I will be for my family, for him.

Hyunjin.

I had discovered to have fallen in love with him. How truely enraptured I was by his mere being. But I didn't quite understand everything.

I had read in ancient books from our library, about the deserving trueblood and their pureblood, how the golden moon appeared when their wolves would call for each other for the first time.

I had come to know about Hyunjin being a pureblood. Our families did know so too. But I believed the story about the soulmates to be just fantasy, till I turned 21.

I still remember my heart burning and my soul felt as if it would physically fall apart. The moon had turned shiny golden, a deeper shade than usual. The golden moon appears so rarely that many believe it to be a myth as I did. That night it appeared only for a few seconds but in those few moments the moon shone so brightly, it beat the sun's rays and felt as if it could blind the naked human eye. That was when my wolf howled his name.

We can start changing into our wolf forms around 16 years old. And it takes some time for us to train our inner wolves and for the wolf to fully grow so that we can communicate with out wolf parts through our emotions properly. On our eighteenth birthday our wolves reach their truest form and usually people start to find their suitable mates then. I never cared for mates when I turned eighteen. How could I when the only the one I cared about the most was not with me? How could I when my mate was already predestined to be connected with me?

But even after reaching its truest form our wolves never speak.

But that night mine did, when I was 21 years old. It called out his name. Just his name. Repeatedly and despertately!

It was his eighteenth birthday. And I realised that was the night when his wolf called for mine. And my wolf had responded.

Then I knew we were destined mates. Destined by fate. I was so fortunate to be have met with such rare fate but how cruel was that fate to have taken away someone who was entrusted to my by the Moon Goddess! Someone I treasured more than anything.

And for a long time I felt as if I truely didn't deserve him. I still don't know if I do.

But what I do know is that I love him. That we are soulmates. I know that no matter how much he hates me he still feels the pain I do. He must have been so hurt that night, he must have felt so lonely, so scared like I did.

It fills me with immeasurable anger that he has to live with those greedy Kang bastards. We don't know much about the state of the Baek empire. I tried to get some information in the initial years after the incident. But we were banned from the lands and all ways of communication were blocked as well. I was hopeless and the only thing I could do was to curse myself alone in the forest.

But even though our spies couldn't see it for themselves, the efficient, skilled ones got information through words of people. We do know is that the Baek King, Minlee Samchon is in coma, but thank goddess, he is still alive. The Kang King and Prince have overtaken the Baek empire and have been ruling their own Kang empire from there as well. Our spies said that Hyunjin and the other Baek brothers are safe and the common people are safe as well even though we don't have much details.

The image of Jinnie being okay and probably happy is the only thing that has kept me alive all these years. But there is this weird sense of worry within my heart that I can't explain. I want to run to him, to make sure he is fine...but I can't. I couldn't.

He means to me so much. All of the Baek brothers do. I called them family once. And my words aren't empty. They are my family.

I broke a promise to Hyunjin, and now I would do anything to tell him how much I love him, even if I have to break myself for it. Even if it's the last thing I do.

Till then I shall embarce my sleepless nights, as I knew the moon would help me find my way back to my mate soon.
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The next morning I entered the courtroom with the hope given to me by my family here, and the hope to meet my other family soon. I walked in with determination and also a plan.

I sat on my throne beside my parents after ages. The ministers and generals looked at me waiting for me to speak.

I looked at eomma and appa as they nodded to permit me to speak.

"I know that you all and the entire empire is curious about my coronation. Heirs are crowned at the age of eighteen and it's been years since I turned so. But I shall only accept the crown with my mate beside me to share it's honourable burden with me."

I purposely didn't mention the term soulmates as Hyunjin's real identity was hidden from the world for his safety and also the fact that a pureblood even exists in reality was not known.

"Your highess, I am sorry but the entire empire wants to know that when shall that happen."

Minister Park asked.

"Very soon." I said confidently and I could feel my parents and brothers looking at me with expectant eyes.

The Kings dismissed the court at once and excitement was evident in their voices.

"Hyung, you have a plan don't you?" Seungmin asked, overexcitement was heard in his voice after years.

I smirked.

"I swear to goddess Chan-ah! If you keep us in suspense any longer..." Eomma threatened.

"Minho, Changbin, prepare our secret troop towards the Kang empire. Seungmin-ah you are the best strategist. You know what to do."

They all smirked and nodded.

"Appa, eomma." I got up from my seat and turned to my parents.

"We need to send a letter. To the parasites called Kangs living in my Hyunjin's home. I have wasted 9 years. I won't waste another moment now. They thought I was naive to be in love. But I was naive to have settled for hate."

I turned to looked at everyone, I could feel the same fire of determination burning in their hearts as it did in mine.

"We are getting our family back together." I smiled.

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P.s. Chan has finally stopped being an idiot. Lol.

What do you think his plan is? What do you think actually happened in the past? Do you guys remember the black pearl? How is it connected to all this? How did the blood moon appear nine years ago before its time?

And the answer is...

You will find out soon😉

See you next <3

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