Platonic Hearts (Compass Series #1)

Chapter Thirty-one

A turn

I woke up the next morning with a smile on my face. Body aching, legs numbing, and naked, but my first thought was instantly what happened last night. I have no words to describe it.

Dahan-dahan akong bumangon pero nanatili pa ring nakayakap sa kumot para matakpan ang sarili. I looked around and shut my eyes again--only to remember what it feels like last night. It happened so fast, but at the same time so right. We just did it... At ginusto ko iyon. Was it the influence of alcohol? Maybe. But I still knew both of us were aware of what we're doing. Sinubukan pa niya nga akong pigilan, pero ako itong hindi na nakapagpigil pa. I was just too... willing.

Hinanda ko ang sarili ko. But I also didn't expect that he would be that gentle. He was just very careful and passionate to what he's doing. At nang masanay na ako ay doon nalang siya bahagyang naging agresibo. It's as if he's been waiting for the moment all his life...

Napangiti ako. I let my messed-up hair dropped down my face then grabbed a pillow beside me. Binaon ko iyon sa mukha ko at tumili. I don't think I regret a thing.

"Anong ginagawa mo?"

Napabitaw ako sa unan at napatingin sa pintuan papasok sa kwarto. I saw Rhysand leaning against the wall there. He was staring at me confused and with a sleepy face. Pero bakas na bakas rin sa mukha niya ang tuwa.

"Sumisigaw ka ba?" He asked again. This time, a smirk was now forming on his face.

Hindi ako nakasagot at bumaba lang ng tingin. He sounded so casual... Parang wala lang may nangyari kagabi, ah? Couldn't he see? I-I'm still at that phase... Hindi pa rin nagsi-sink in sa akin lahat ng 'to!

I'm not even confident now to answer him.

"I'm sorry about last night..." He cleared his throat. "I wasn't thinking. I feel like I took advantage of you. Dapat pinigilan pa rin kita--"

"Don't be sorry, Rhysand." I murmured. "Wala naman akong... may pinagsisihan sa nangyari. I loved every bits of it. And I would rather have you as my first than anyone else... Sa tingin ko ay hindi ko na iyon kayang gawin pa sa iba..."

He laughed at the door, astonishment played in his eyes before slowly walking near me. Umupo siya sa paanan ko.

"So... you're completely okay with what happened?"

Tumango-tango ako. "Like what I said, I loved every bits of it. Hindi ko rin inaasahan... pero iyon ang totoo, Rhy. I... I didn't regret anything."

"Really, moonshine?" He gasped and grinned widely. "To be honest, akala ko mandidiri ka."

I laughed. "I never even thought of that. Bakit naman kita pandidirian?"

"I don't know. Maybe because I'm your best friend? I've been just your friend for a long time. Hindi ko inisip kagabi na papayag ka," sagot niya. "We made love, Aria."

Natatawang napailing-iling nalang ako. "You're still not over with the best friend thing? Rhysand, noong nagtapat ka, nawala na 'yan sa isip ko. I don't see you that way anymore..." I folded my lips and looked around. "Kung nandito ka para kamustahin ako, I'm fine, Rhy. I just feel tired. Can I... Uhm... Can I change now?"

His eyes widened a bit before looking down at my body. Napalunok siya bago tumayo mula sa kama at tumango-tango. "S-Sure," he said. "But can you do it alone tho? Pwede kitang bihisan--"

"Rhysand!"

I throw a pillow at him. Humalakhak namang lumabas siya ng kwarto at iniwan pang hindi naka-lock ang pintuan. Jerk.

I heavily sighed and started wrapping myself with the blanket. I wrote everything down for my jar that was already half filled. Hindi ko akalaing magiging mabilis ang pagpuno ko rito. It's only been a matter of months since me and Rhysand happened. Yet here it is now. It was more fulfilling than I thought.