My Bright Light

Chapter 31

*plays Notion while writing this*

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Amelia's pov*

I don't want to wake up. I want to fucking die. I don't want to live, I don't want to do anything. I just want to die.

I wake up and remove my head from the cold bathroom floor. I stand up weakly and look in the mirror. Tears start falling from my eyes again and I couldn't stand looking at myself anymore. I cover my face with my hand and look at the time on my phone.

1:00 pm.

I look at my phone to see a million texts from Adrian.

Amelia where are you?
Why are you locked up in the bathroom open the door baby.
Amelia what's wrong?
Can you please open the door?
If you want to tell me something you know I will always listen Amelia.

The texts only make me cry even harder.

I carefully open my bathroom door. Preparing myself for the talk I'm gonna have with Adrian about his totally awesome bestfriend.

I see Athena sitting on my bed.

"Amelia. I've been waiting here for you since I woke u- why are you crying?" She asks with a concerned face.

I cry a lot harder and go and lock my bedroom door.

"It's fucking Diego." I sniffle and take the tissues because I know I'm about to cry a water fall out of my eyes. "He... he made a move on me yesterday and he lifted up my shirt and kept fucking kissing my bare chest and fucking-" I cry harder and wipe my tears with the napkin.

"You can tell me everything without feeling ashamed Amelia. Don't do this to yourself. Tell me." Athena says while rubbing my back soothingly.

"All day yesterday he kept flirting with me and acting weird. I thought it was his sick way of joking but he took it too far yesterday when I went to my bedroom and saw the bedroom open. And you know I never keep it open. I showered and dressed and I walked out of the walk in closet and saw him sitting on my bed.." I wipe my tears that were falling hard.

"He said he's been watching me shower and dress and that he's been here the whole time. Then I kicked him in the stomach and pushed him out the room. Later that night I heard footsteps around the room. I thought it was Adrian and I opened my arms for him to cuddle with me... then I looked down and saw Diego laying on my boobs looking delighted." I laugh trying to humor anyone but none of me or Athena laugh so I continue. "He pinned me down, said he only wanted a taste. And he fucking started sucking and kissing my chest like he was starving and I'm the only meal there is. I kicked him in his dick and ran to the bathroom. And now I have no fucking idea how I'm gonna break this to Adrian. I'm so fucking scared." I sob while shaking horribly.

Athena looked really angry but hugged me anyway.

I was still shaking uncontrollably and I cried hard in Athena's embrace.

"He told me that it's okay to talk to him and I know that. But I don't want to ruin the image of his bestfriend that he sees as a brother for him." I cry as I gasp for air a few times.

I want to fucking kill myself. I can't stand another day on this earth. I don't see any point of waking up anymore. I continue to cry hard and everytime Athena squeezes me for comfort I cry harder. I never stopped shaking.

I hear a knock on the door and I hear Adrian's voice. I look up at the door and shake my head.

"It's alright, I'll tell him if you don't want to." Athena whispers and I keep crying.