I had the dream again.
Reliving events
from many years ago.I've walked down lonely
frightening streets
in the dark,
sometimes lost...
sometimes just knowing
I had a long way to go.
Telling myself
all would be well.Telling myself
that I wasn't alone -
that there are people out there
that care about me
and will rescue me
before anything bad really happens,
though another part of me
feels the loneliness
a bit more oppressively
in moments like this,
when I realize
no one even knows
where I am,
much less cares,
when I'll be home.My mind flashes back
to a time when this happened -
not sure how many years back.
I had missed the last bus
and decided to walk...
thought I'd take a shortcut
but I just got lost...It got dark and very cold.
The winter streets were sick -
It's interesting what crosses your mind
in times like this...
thoughts about how close
they come to me -
the cares that come around
each corner
their lights in my face...and I think about how slippery
the street is
and how close the cars
get to me
before they even notice I'm there
walking alone on this night...
Something I should not be doing,
should I?No one really knows
that I am out here walking.I tell myself with each car approaching
that it will safely avoid me,
just like the car before it did...
and that the lightening
will wait
will wait until I get home safely...
and the dogs I hear
will stay away,
not even noticing me...
and I plead with God desperately,
insisting that God intervene..."You must!"
I should trust.
I must trust God...These things I tell myself
over and over
at times like this,
trying to find comfort
in anything at all.I've had this dream
more than once,
reliving real events
and I know it's a dream
this time
and I just wait
and hope
that the dawn
comes in time.
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What Matters Most: Poems About Love, Loss, & Trauma
ПоэзияThis is a collection of poems inspired by love, loss of love, and other events that began in late July of 2000. This is my autobiography in poetry form. It's not just about love but also about the loss of those I have loved. I had fallen totally and...