TW: Paranoia, Religious Trauma, Eyes, Self Harm, Past Suicide Attempt!!!
I decided to make some vent art to help express some of my emotions in a healthy way...
ओह! यह छवि हमारे सामग्री दिशानिर्देशों का पालन नहीं करती है। प्रकाशन जारी रखने के लिए, कृपया इसे हटा दें या कोई भिन्न छवि अपलोड करें।
Is this character development?!
Probably not. I'm just out of things to use to cope since I lost my vent book.
I've been using every coping mechanism under the sun that has actually worked for me... which unfortunately is not a lot.
Pretty much just self harm.
I've been going to mandatory therapy recently... I can't really get out of it since I was caught trying to kill myself.
I kinda just ignore her, and play with some of the toys in the room. She can't exactly force me to talk when I don't wanna.
Therapy doesn't work.
My last therapist just told me how I felt, and refused to give me coping mechanisms.
The entire system is fucked.
If I was in a cool fantasy or SIFI or anime universe, I could have my villain ark right now... unfortunately I can't do that without consequences.
So the most villain thing I can do is fucking illegal substances... but like... every one I know does or has done illegal substances.
Not exactly evil ya know?
I wish I could be a villain... They're always the cool ones...
My friends getting me a vape pretty soon... so that's something I guess...
I'm so emotionally and physically tired.
I'm barely forcing myself through at this point...
I'm so tempted to just shut everything off and just stop talking. Go into full autopilot. So I can just forget everything.
Wow this is depressing...
If anyone's reading this... why?
This is just a book about me whining about life.
आप पढ़ रहे हैं
Dear Diary
कथेतर साहित्यliterally just a diary that I'm posting. My life is boring so yeah... If you know me in real life... and you read this, I do not take responsibility for any hurt feelings. I will not use real names. this is literally going to be my diary so no ru...
